The Race

A teacher once told the class about rat race; a competition which we get ourselves involved with or without realizing it, to take a step forward and to upgrade our lives if possible. Like many others, we tend to compare ourselves with the rest of the world, especially when we are in a very competitive competition, where the more is no longer the merrier. Be they the rivals or the enemies, we keep an eye on them, especially on their progress; after all, it does us well if we get hold of the opponents’ strengths and weaknesses, doesn’t it? Perhaps this is one of those tiny little secrets which we would never share, that we tend to be jealous and envious when the rivals are way better than we are and that there are times where we hope the opponents would fall and so we will stand a chance to surpass them. Do we or do we not feel it that way sometimes? This is not a question seeking for an answer, but a question questioning us and the answer to the question shall be kept to ourselves.

Owned

It is rather funny that most people think they own one particular person by being in a relationship or worst, having sexual intercourse which may be due to the belief such that only the person we love most will have the key to unlock us from the inside, though some may have a change in mind regarding that statement. Unlike many other non-living objects, we human beings are expressive in a way, with all sorts of emotions stored as we love, hate and complain; precisely the reasons why there is no way we can own a person, literally. We don’t sit still at one corner like many dolls do, where the owners come to us as they please and leave as they wish; we are not locked inside the cages like some of the pets, where we’re trained to do as the masters told; we will never obey all the sayings of one particular person as we have a perspective of our own and perhaps, waiting for our chance to strike instead of being the puppets for the rest of our lives. Perhaps some may find the word “own” to be inappropriate when it comes to a relationship, but still, there are those who used it and still do, be they intentionally or not. We are responsible for our actions and decisions made, especially when it involves the relationships and partnerships, as we have chose to be with that particular someone; however, we’re not owned and never it will be.

Canned Fruit Drops

Went to the 100Yen shop next to Station 1 Café before meeting up with the rest and there I found this canned fruit drops which brought up the blurry pictures of this particular movie. Unfortunately, only one out of the six knows what I was talking about when I tried describing the pictures in my head regarding that movie. Perhaps it is some images from the past which have already embedded deep inside my heart and waiting to be awakened, or maybe that’s what would happen whenever we try to recall anything from the previous experiences. As what I remember, there was this kid who is so in love with that canned fruit drops that he adds in water just so he can tastes the sweetness when he finished all the candies. Such nostalgic I must say, as I did the same when I was way younger, just that mine was made in Malaysia instead of Japan. Guess it is part of the human nature that we try to ensure the happiness stays, where we enjoyed ourselves best with all the laughter and smiles, and never would we let go until we tasted the very last drop of it.

The Contract

It is a contract which would last for the year, to the end of this year, where we then move on separate ways. Sounds depressing, but it wouldn’t be long. Bet there are times where we have the urge of telling someone how we truly feel regarding one matter or a person, to share the little secret hidden at the bottom of our hearts and yet, there’s the other conscious telling us not to. The very first time sharing this little content of the so called contract, tears were rolling down the cheeks, which then regretted doing so because crying is not and shouldn’t be my thing; during the second time, there were no tears but only sigh; for the third time, it was somehow being expressed in a casual way, more of a relief or sort. Guess that’s how the time works in healing our wounds, little by little the pain is eased and we are then set free. Note the word ‘contract’ being used here is merely an exaggerative term as it does not explain the real situation; simply the similar feelings.

Good, Better, Best

Very often we wonder why the unexpected and unwanted incident would take place in our lives, which may somehow leaves its trace in our hearts and haunt us for one particular period of time. We might be questioning ourselves why and doubting our own capabilities or even charms; are we not good enough to cope with the world or perhaps the people by our sides for the very least? Are we supposed to be another person so that we can grab some attention instead of being who we really are? Are we so insensitive such that things happen behind our backs and we have no clue at all? We are good, but there’s the person who is always better, and never there will be the best among us as we may improve ourselves to a higher level every now and then. But what do we expect when we spend most of the time whining and telling ourselves how useless we are instead of putting in the efforts to be better? To surpass many others, we become a better self and certainly, we should prepare ourselves to be surpassed by the others too; the good, the better.

The Limited

I have limited time for a limited range of activities and circles which I would commit myself to, with the limited patience and passion to endure that particular range of obstacles and problems. Some may find this statement offensive and insulting, but that’s how it works, at least it is in my very own world. Along with the limitations which have already been set by us and the others, we live up to our dreams if we ever have one and we try discovering who we are, by scanning through the thoughts within the circles and sharing some of our own. We are always right until someone pointed it out on our behalf and we would still be right if we refuse to accept any of the mistakes we’ve made. The limited time as given, is merely the time we are willing to spend on one of our doings; the limited range of activities and circles as noted, are simply the people and events we tend to get ourselves attached to; the limited patience and passion as told, are the energy which may keep us going, be it through the thick and thin. The limited is simply, part of the limitations we've set for all.

Sensing In The Dark

When we are in the complete darkness, it is hard to have a clear vision, but that doesn’t mean we wouldn’t be able to see a thing and it doesn’t mean we wouldn’t watch where we are heading as we may still have our senses. Frankly speaking, there are times where we may have a better idea of the people around when we are in the total darkness, like how stars shine in the darkened sky and how different things seem to be with the lights out. We may see only the strengths and put the weaknesses aside, or perhaps the opposite instead; we may sense the invisible and ignore the visible as we no longer see things with our eyes; we prepare ourselves for the disappointments we may soon receive and ready to discover a stronger bonding within the circle. We are not helpless even when we’re at the greatest despair as we are capable of working something out, and it will never be the end of the world even when we’re surrounded by darkness as it would be a whole new opportunity for us to have a better view of the people around. When the time comes, we know what to do and what should be done, even in the dark itself, we know. 

Unpredictable Dreams

Haven’t been able to sleep well for the past two weeks, not with the dreams I’ve had. Perhaps this is a form of message of the subconscious mind, giving all sorts of clues and guidance regarding the events which are to take place or perhaps, it is simply a dream. It was all about loneliness and fear I suppose, where many who care were taken away and those who don’t stay, where the attacks were launched in order to keep on living and there I found my way. There were the disguise and tricks, to escape right under the enemies’ noses and aim for the peace waiting ahead; there were the heartache and tears, to do what it takes in order to survive and to wipe out the enemies ahead; there were me, myself and I, trying to differentiate what’s reality and what’s not, to make sure I will wake up from the dreams when the time is right. Dreaming is tiring but not always, it may act as the awakening potion and it may not be, it might boost the creativity and imagination but it may not work all the time. Not everyone likes to dream, but there will always be someone who desperately looking forward to; unpredictable as it is, dreams can bring a person to life and also capable of killing him in the same time.

Slowing Down

Time passes real fast, but everything seems to be slowing down. One week to go to the end of STPM, such short period of time and yet, it feels like ages. Blog entries are lesser than expected, which probably due to the comment received earlier, or perhaps the urge of procrastinating; just another excuse after all. Should things be this slow when it happens so quickly? Another month to new year, where everyone will then enters a whole new chapter of life, strictly no exceptional. Maybe we are suppose to enjoy ourselves to the fullest before everything is coming to an end, or perhaps it is merely the psychological issue that the time passes slower as we desperately looking forward to the upcoming events. As time passes at constant speed, we would have a better picture on what’s important and what’s not, that is if we open ourselves to more options and perspectives; as we experience things at different speed, we would obtain a different result too and as we’re slowing down, we might just be able to have a clearer vision of the future. Who knows?

Direct Translation

Perhaps it is due to the fact that I’m Chinese educated, perhaps I did not do enough readings or perhaps I’m simply not good enough, that I am still having the problem of direct translating my English from Mandarin, not to mention I did not even realize it in the first place till a friend of mine pointed it out, where I then seek for the opinions from third parties; a reassurance which turned out to be a disaster. Guess that’s that. From time to time we would translate the messages directly from an incident or a situation, which can sometimes be useful or maybe not. Say, we assume one is busy when he’s replying us late, where we then say goodbye and wish him good day; we assume the number of messages is directly proportional to how much a person cares about us or how close he is to us; we assume everything is fine when people are not showing any sign of dissatisfaction. Those are merely the assumptions being made, but as always, when we interpret it correctly, it will do us good and when we don’t, the effect is just the opposite. 

Standing Up

When it happens once, we take it as a lesson; when it happens twice, it could be our responsibility that it happened; when it happens thrice, something must be wrong. There is no coincidence, only fate and destiny; there is no fear which can never be overcome, only us. Incidents taken place when we least expected it or perhaps the opposite, be it to test our courage and capability or to push us to a higher level. We may be blaming ourselves or perhaps the others as well when the unwanted events happen, we might be questioning the fate when the unexpected taken place and we’d probably forget about the fact that things happen for a reason as we need an excuse to ease the pain and to move on. Always, we would be overwhelmed by emotions whenever we are less cautious and always, it would take us a period of time and effort just to get ourselves out from the mess. However, that doesn’t give us the excuse to continue pulling ourselves down and not concentrating on the tasks given, when we can stand up once again and ready to take down the world.  

Upholding Pride

When we are doing something which many think is inappropriate, we might not agree with them; however, when people are using it against us, how often does it come across our mind that we were once in their position too? An elder got pissed as he thinks the younger generations do not respect him as they are supposed to, felt offended and that it was inappropriate for them to make joke on him in public, even if they meant no harm. Yet, words from his mouth often give others bad impression regarding the younger ones, not to mention those are not facts but merely the created stories. When he is questioned, the only reply would be, “It does not matter if we’re to speak ill of the kids,” such disgusting manner. Since when only the adults’ pride must be upheld while the younger ones’ can be mortified? Psychologically, it may cause permanent damage to the very souls who are yet to learn about enduring countless attacks from the society and the people around. If we want to be respected by many, we must first learn to respect the others, even if that particular person is lower ranking than we are in the society, or simply a 7 years old kid. What comes around goes around and it certainly does not help in upholding our pride by mortifying others’.

Edition

We prone to edit the experiences we’ve been through, either making it into some sort of life-risking adventure or no-big-deal kind of daily routine. Perhaps we did it without realizing the fact that we did or perhaps we just want to make it more interesting and exciting. Whichever it is, it is still undeniable that we do edit our stories in life and certainly, this concept varies from one individual to another. As we speak, we may miss out a word or two, a sentence or two, and sometimes even a scene or two, where the truth lies; and as we pass on the messages, it would be the same either. Another funny thing is, there are times where we show off with other people’s experiences too, as though it is our own, not to mention we even edit it so that it can captures the attention of the listeners more. Each time we repeat the same plotline, each time we repeat the same facial expression and each time we try our very best to describe the so called experiences, picturing them to the third parties, it would be an edited version. It is after all, a way to express ourselves and our lives, to be better instead of just plain.

By One's Side

Always, we look for the people who are always by our sides and yet, we might miss them sometimes, not knowing their existence. If we are asked to describe a close friend, we would usually say that particular person stands by us always. Ironically, we acknowledge only those who we consider as one, those who have been by our sides all this while, those who have caught our attention and enter our world. When we give people chance in entering our lives, we give them the opportunity to show that they care and that they are those who can hold us up when we are about to fall; however, that does not mean that there is no one else who would do the same without us giving them the permission to, because there are indeed those who not care how often we not see them, as long as they can be by our sides. For now, they might be insignificant, they may be invisible and they could be a stranger passerby, but in the days to come, we would never know how it will turn out to be. To stand by a person is easy, but to be acknowledged as someone who cares is sometimes harder than we think it could be. Personally, when one particular person shows that he cares at that particular moment where everything is just right, the bond will be formed, hence, being recognized as one who is by their sides always.

Pace Evolution

As we gradually move to the next level, the pace increases from slow to fast where the time taken to do so varies from one individual to another. Perhaps we might find things more difficult as we go on and feel that we’re not getting any better, but the truth is, we are, just that it is not so obvious. From the skills we’ve obtained, we improve them bit by bit, and sometimes, we may even remain on the same ground for one particular period of time, but it will never be long if we continue to boost ourselves. As we improve ourselves, the skills and strengths, we somehow find the previous lessons learned much easier compared to the first time we trying to get hold of them, and from time to time we realize it is only a piece of cake to carry out the task now than the old days back then. There’s a saying that practice makes perfect and since there’s no limitation to the so called perfect, we would always be better and better, as long as we continue practising. When people look at us, they may find us great, for we possessed the skills they do not have, but it doesn’t mean they can’t; when we look at those who are greater than we are, we might be envious, we might be jealous, but we can also achieve what they already have, if we put in the effort and time. The speed of the pace taken is less important, if we are to compare it with the result of hard work. Even if we can’t see the significant changes, it doesn’t mean that we did not change, because we did and we may not have a clue at all.

Answers Interpretation

When people ask questions, we answer; however, how we answer would be determining the answers others may interpret them to be. Not many would speak up whatever they’ve known, or wish to tell, but always, they try to deliver the message in a way that they themselves might not notice it either, to ensure that we’re fine after the obstacles we’ve been through and so on. We on the other hand, may or may not realize the message within the messages received; if we do, we answer the questions without them knowing us knowing they’ve already known while assuring them we’re okay in the mean time; if we don’t, we’ll answer it anyway, just that it would be somehow different, in the sense of not answering the exact question that has been asked since we did not interpret it correctly in the first place. Sometimes we purposely pretend to not know the hidden messages, and give the answers people may or may not want to hear, for that answer itself is the answer we want them to hear, instead of the real answer from the bottom of our hearts. Indeed, they might not be happy, but from our point of view, we know which answer is the best, for both the parties or perhaps, only one.

Crying Baby

The baby is here again. The usual tactic, we distract his attention so that the parents can pull themselves out and attend some meeting. For the first two hours, everything seems to be interesting, where he reaches out his hands for every item in sight; cute. He then becomes a nightmare for both the elders, when he starts crying without having the ability to tell us exactly what he wants, other than shaking his head and continue crying out loud. This is the first time ever having a baby over, and we give up; babies are usually fun when they don’t have to stay over for hours without the parents around. One of the elders says, no one likes babies who try to get attention by crying and cry even louder when people want to comfort them. Guess that’s just how it works; we prefer those who don’t whine much, where the plans would go well as planned. When we can only make sounds in order to deliver messages rather than speaking it out, it would be a tough one, as people may interpret us wrongly or we send out the wrong signals. As we growing up, we learn to deliver the message better, though we may have learned it wrongly, we never know. However, even now that we can speak or pass out the correct messages, there are times where we tend to misuse it, which makes us no difference compared to crying babies, except we are bigger size than they are and more skills possessed.

Pet Society

Currently addicted to Pet Society; guess it’s the kind of game to kill boredom though it may be boring sometimes, especially when we non-stop clicking the pet to jump. With all the trophies waiting to be won, many willing to spend certain amount of coins purchasing the items provided in the shops, be it clothes, furniture and many more. Almost similar to our human life I must say; decorating the rooms and putting on fancy outfits. The differences are, we get to upgrade our house without having us to pay and we don’t have to work in order to earn money since it comes from the pet itself whenever we play with it or when we walk around the housing area. Come to think of it, there are plenty of games available in the market, which are some sort of the reflection of our lives. Perhaps it is a way to release tension, where we can be what we wanted to be, without having ourselves bounded by rules and regulations; perhaps it is us who are trying to find a place where we can fit in without having much worries compared to the reality, where we can hide ourselves from the troubles and obstacles ahead; perhaps it is a way for us to fulfill our desires with the aid of the internet world, even if they are not real; perhaps it is simply to kill time. All and all, there is a purpose and we are the ones who know what it could be.

化身

曾几何时，它是他的化身，代表他陪伴在我身旁。中型泰迪熊，带着绅士般的笑容，进入我的生活圈子。初次相识，我俩有着一定的距离；被收藏在橱内的它往往只能看见我房内的景观，而我则常常外出享受生活，两者处于不同的世界。然而，那寂寞的夜晚改变了我们。望着柜子里众多它的同类，我将它取出紧抱怀中，企图得到一些安慰。当然，它没让我失望。那瞬间，我的不安与焦虑完全消失。或许这只是心理因素，或许是他将它送及我身旁的缘故，或许是它的魔法带走了失落，我轻松了许多。我将它当成了他，直到他踏入异国土地亦是如此。它取代了他部分位置，成为他的化身，至少对我而言，它是。在漫漫长夜里，我拥它入眠；当孤寂侵入心头，我更是对它不舍；记得有一次我和他闹得不欢，竟理所当然的将它弃在一旁数夜。如今，我知道他是他，它是它，两者不能一并座谈。化身，是我们自己的思绪所创出来的精神寄托，现实生活中是否有此一谈则是个谜，待众人揭晓。

Glimpse of Hope

Does not matter how bad the situations seem to be, does not matter how many people not having faith in the relationships we’re currently in, does not matter how uncertain the future is, always, we try our best to catch every glimpse of hope which appears in sight, be it in the form of smile, tears or even one particular moment which captures our hearts most, and always, we would seek for its existence even if we almost missed it. This may be referring to those who have a broken heart waiting to be healed, who have a broken soul waiting to be completed and who have a broken lifestyle waiting to be corrected; this may be referring to those who are waiting for a better future so that things would be better, who are waiting for a better chance so that they can turn things around and who are waiting for a better decision made so that everything would be different. Sometimes we need no the others to tell us what’s important and what’s not, sometimes we do; sometimes we need no the others to warn us what’s dangerous and what’s not, sometimes we do; sometimes we need no the others to sound us what’s correct and what’s not, sometimes we do. But not always we listen to the advices of third parties, not always we snap ourselves out of the fantasy we are in and not always we accept the truth of lies, as we may still live upon the hopes which we’ve collected, upon the glimpse of hope which we’ve found.

As Long As

Wonder if it is a form of hypnotization due to the previous incident or the emotions can really be dealt with within four days; all calm and cool now. Guess letting go of something isn’t so bad, except the part where the memories together often pop up in mind, making us wonder how things would go in the future. Despite the fact that it is somehow awkward, it is still kind a cool to be informed earlier, isn’t it? Nevertheless, I am ready. When we are able to handle things on our own, we do it; when we can stand up by ourselves, we do it; when we are capable of something others can’t, we do it. Strong enough to be independent, tough enough to not always trouble others, firm enough to not influence by many emotions; those are what we usually think we should be. Certainly, we ask for help when we know we need it most, like many have said, a good soldier knows when to back out, for there will always be the chance to strike again. When the decision has been made, when the time is up, when it is a must, we do it, does not matter whether we can last, does not matter whether we would have a future, does not matter if it ends right here and now. As long as we’ve enjoyed ourselves, as long as we had a great time together, as long as we are still good and well, it is alright.

People Know

Sneaked out to a night gathering ten days before STPM and managed to get home before the mother does. Daring? Not exactly, not when we have support from others. Personally believe that each and every one of us has done things which not many people know of, be it something unspeakable or the opposite. It could be a dare or simply what we feel like doing, with or without much thinking, but all and all, sometimes supports are needed in order for us to carry out the decisions made and sometimes, words of influences from the peers can do the job just fine. The funny part is, when we think no one would have a clue on what we have done or going through, it always happens to be the opposite. Say, once travelled all the way to a different state so that a friend could meet up with the special someone and of course, the truth was kept away from both parents; at the very end of the day, father said he knows what we’ve been doing, and his friend saw us hanging around at the mall in state S. Another similar incident occurred where the father again, knows about the relationship which has been kept as a secret and that was when it is officially accepted by the family. Perhaps it was obvious enough for the old man to take note of or perhaps, his eyes are just too sharp to observe the surroundings and who knows how many more are as observant as he is out there in this world? It is not that people don’t know, just that sometimes, they choose not to talk about it.

Seeing Future

Finally understand that sort of feelings where we know how much longer we can live, where we discover the lifespan of one particular circle or even relationship; it isn’t easy after all, is it? As if we are actually counting down to the day we die, instead of one meaningful day or event. Personally know that each chapter has its very own limitations, not only in the sense of how far it may go, but also how different things may be in the days to come; just that, it has been much easier to think than to carrying out the tasks. Guess that’s just the way it is. Seeing the future can indeed be torturing at times and very often we wonder whether we are able to change it; the answer is yet to be found. One of the problems of able to see the future is, we will be put into dilemma and stuck in between two different conscious living in us; to change or not to change, to do or not to do, to speak or not to speak. Even if we know the exact date where everything is coming to an end, we still can’t help it but to feel despair and hurt; simply because we care. Though we are to enjoy those particular moments to the very end, we can’t help it but to feel miserable and helpless; simply because we are not ready to let go. A bit more to go before we enter a new year; till then I hope, I am ready to be gone.

After Lost & Confused

All lost and confused, where the sense of insecurity is so strong that we see no future ahead, which somehow equivalent to giving in and waiting for it coming to an end. We do not know what to do, yet want to do something in order to fix it; we do not wish to see it ends, yet start wondering the days after it happens; we do not want the awkward moments continue, yet remain silent in the phone for few seconds. Discovering the truth has always been hard, especially when we are informed by the third parties or perhaps figure it out on our own instead of the people responsible telling us; maintaining a relationship has never been easy, especially when there are the external and internal factors which play a role in affecting the situations and problems occurred, be it the differences in perspectives or distance in between. Sometimes wonder, when it is destined to be, why try so hard to stop it, to the point where we hypnotize ourselves to hold on. Perhaps this is a form of perspective which needs to be changed. Our lives would come to an end does not matter what we do or who we are, but that doesn’t mean we should put it to an end right here and now; even if relationships are to be ended, it does not mean we shouldn’t enjoy ourselves to the very last moment together. Everything looks so grey when we are lost and confused, when we couldn’t find our way out and when we are about to give up upon our hopes; however, it doesn’t mean that we cannot stand up once again and to live a better life.

End of Form6

Said goodbye to tuition life yesterday and soon enough, would be high school life as well. It has been one and a half years now, which somehow feels like ages, though it isn’t that long, compared to many others. Some may be feeling reluctant to put such enjoyable school life to an end, that they can no longer spend time with their friends as frequent as they are; some may be worrying that everything will not be the same, for the distance may set them apart and they would not be as not as close as they are; some may take this chance to create the memorable moments together with all the beloved classmates or schoolmates before everything is coming to an end, in the sense of no longer attending the same school as they are. Was once told that the bonds in between 6th Formers are usually stronger than any others, especially when we compare to the lower Forms, for we cherish the moments better and of course, this is not meant to offend anyone else as we know there are the stronger bonds among other Forms that we not know of. There is no doubt that all of us will still be in touch in the days to come, but the question is, how frequent? Well, it doesn’t matter really, because this is only the end of Form 6 school life, but never the friendships in between.

It Matters

Our lives have been unpredictable in a way, so are the circles around us, for we never know what might be coming up, not even the so called intuitions which may be accurate at times. Certainly, there is no harm in planning far ahead but, not everything can be planned for the near future; say, the relationships. How many would want to go through troubles and worries when they are involved in one particular bonding, wondering how long it can last when they do not wish to see everything coming to an end? Indeed, prediction can be made, only depends on the individuals whether they are willing to, for some may find it okay whereas the others think it is inappropriate as long as they are still in the relationship. On the other hand, there is such concept that we reveal our deepest desire through the words spoken and the questions being asked, be it the cravings for food or simply, the hope to see one particular person. Yes, we get worried from time to time, despite the fact that we are tired of doing so and yes, we can’t help it but to wonder about the worst case scenario with our imaginations go wild even if we hate it when it happens. When everything is right, the worst does not matter and when the road gets bumpy, even the most insignificant problem may cause the tsunami. For now, everything matters.

Voices in Silence

Right ear is not functioning well after some pressure applied and everything seems to be quieter; guess that’s the effect. When the air is no longer moving, our surroundings turn silent; when we lock ourselves in, we know nothing about the outside world; when we feel nothing, it is the time where we lose everything. Sometimes we wish to be left alone and sometimes, we don’t but always, we want people to be by our sides when we are to say the opposite desire. We don’t know everything on this planet and the universe but we assume us to be; we know nothing about the true definition of silent but we always say we do; we can’t move on with the helps of others but we insist that we can. There are the places where the silence lives, an unknown area to us the human beings. How often do we realize that we are nothing without the voices around, not only in the sense of words spoken but also the messages trying to be delivered, where we become part of the surrounding, coexist with the particles in air? What is the definition of silence? The absence of sound or a period of time without noises made. What do the voices mean to us? Essential messages that help us live as a man and not walking zombie. What does it mean when we hear nothing? It means everything.

Promises of Assurance

Funny thing though, we have been taking promises as a form of assurance. Always, we hear people saying, “I will be back, I promise,” “I will be a better person the next time we meet, I promise,” “Things will be all better in the near future, I promise.” And when they don’t mention the keyword, it would be our turn asking instead, “You promise?” Perhaps many take promises as the words which would never be broken, a form of contract agreed by both parties when there is no disapproval; perhaps some just like the sound of it, professional and yet casual. Is it our personality by nature that we want people to promise us things which would soon be done? Or it is us who are feeling insecure of the surrounding and circles? Either one, it is a fact that promises plays a very important role in many cases, be it between couples, friends and family; it secures our hearts and souls when the worst has come, it puts the troubled minds into sleep, it comforts us in many ways that we can hardly imagine. However, now that certain group of people start playing tricks using the promises made, it is no longer as magical as it used to be, where we lock ourselves up and observe before we are to believe in the words of others, where we see fulfilled promises as something rare and valuable, where we want the people around who are close enough to promise us the promises that can only be carried out by actions and not just words.  

Blaming Others

A kid fell and knocked his gum; the parents were shocked and the father started blaming the mother, saying that bad things always happen to his poor son whenever she is around. Heartache maybe, but is it necessary to blame the lady? Try carrying a baby in the womb for nine months. Yes, other than blaming ourselves when things go wrong, we even blame the fate, or the people around us. Very often, we would hear people complaining that they are not well treated by their fate, that they deserve something even better and that it is their destiny which causes them to go through such difficulties. Obstacles are indeed given ahead as we move on; however, not all problems are caused by the almighty, but us and how often do we realize our mistakes when we made one? There are those who blame their parents for not able to provide them a bigger shelter, to give them more pocket money and so able to compete with the peers; there are those who blame the siblings for sharing the love from both parents, that they don’t get to own the room by themselves, that they think they fail to get as much attention as the siblings do. We want a better life, but we take no action; we want a better family, but we are not one; we want a better circle, but we stick to the opposite. Does blaming the others really help to undo the damage being done and to take us to a higher ground? Doubt so.

Anniversary

A year it has been since the first entry and today is the one year anniversary; different emotions have been saved and the perspectives are shown in the blog since then. Always, people celebrate on the 100th days of being together, months or even years as they call it the anniversary; the annual recurring date of the past event, be it something personal or the opposite. Time is precious and the time being spent on something meaningful is even more, as it has evolved to be the memories which would be saved in our heads, where the word anniversary is then used to denote the length of one particular relationship or event down the journey of life. Both countdown and anniversary are related to the day we’re looking forward to, giving us hope and encouragement to hold on, a reminder to the past which we can never forget. The difference is, we countdown to the day which is yet to come and anniversary is a form of memorial to the past incident which occurred.