Cheese Cake

Today was the first time ever try making a cheese cake, wasn’t as hard as most people thought it would be, in fact, it was rather simple, except certain procedure where one had to spend more time on. It felt like ages watching a friend mixing the ingredients needed when it was only an hour or so to the finishing touch and the remaining two hours was then taken over by the refrigerator. During the process of freezing the cake, we tend to check on it from time to time, couldn’t sit still on the chair. Similarly, when we are to carry out certain activities, creating our very own ‘masterpiece’, the process seems like ages though it actually isn’t and we would be worry sick about the result, whether it would be a success or failure. Parents who brought up their children would somehow think that the process is longer compared to the children of others and they too would compare their children with the others, hoping to be better, to know that their ‘product’ is a success. There are rivals in school or company who work their ways to achieve a satisfying result, hence compete with the rest where it would take up most of the time being, where they themselves are the results. Anyway, though there are times where we could not resist the temptation during the process of living our lives, where we are about to give up our hopes and dreams, where we are bored to death, not knowing what we are doing or what we should be, do remember that this is our lives; process which would bring us the positive and negative emotions, where we would gain and lose in the same time and most importantly, a place where we learn to be better, to achieve higher levels and to be ourselves.

Alarm Clock

Different designs of alarm clocks are easily found around us, be it in shops, supermarkets or houses, with one and only one purpose, which is to remind us of the forgotten time, to wake us up early in the morning where the sun is about to rise, to pull us back into the reality when we are dreaming, does not matter whether we are at work or in bed. As the time passes, the so called alarm clocks have evolved, which are then no longer much needed in the form of clock, but hand phones, habits or even our dearest, family and friends; for everything comes in handy when it is small enough to carry around, maximize our efficiency, having a great start in the morning. However, as the evolution takes place, the function too has been changed, which is no longer one but more than one. Alarm clock is now part of the bonding tools, where it is used to keep two persons in contact, as what we would say, “Time for bonding”. Daughter wakes the mother up for morning exercises, friend who calls up to make sure the other is awake, a person who would listen to us in the darkest night, when a listener is urgently needed, an adviser we can seek for whenever we hit a dead end. Different types of alarm clocks, different functions, to help us stand up once again in order to face the incoming challenges, to stay by our sides supporting us when we are about to fall, to slap us up from misery so that we can carry on with our lives. Look around us, take a look at the alarm clocks of ours and say, thank you.

Subset

Seductive is the subset of attractive, beauty is the subset of Nature creations, hate is the subset of love, doubts are the subset of trust and all subsets are the subset of all. Unlike mathematics where the real numbers are the subset of natural numbers and so on, one particular subset in life is not fixed, for example, failure can be the subset of success and success too can be the subset of failure. If we are to go only when the time is right, where the success rate is up to 100%, then we will never be success, for there will never be one, but higher chances or the other way round. Hence, success is the subset of failure. When one been through hundreds of failures and yet never give up, again and again he stood up from the pain and broken pride, he would somehow reach the top, leading a successful life, being a successful man. That is the time where the failure is the subset of success. There are different subsets in the society, be it a school or company, between two lovers or a group of friends; regular members are the subset of patrol and patrol is the subset of troop, individual is the subset of friends, where friends are the subset of group, group is the subset of community and the community is the subset of country. The subset chain can be carried on and on, where there is no end and no beginning, as we are the ones who hold the key, to narrow down the options, to minimize the subset chain, to lock ourselves up in within and to unlock our future.

Naked

It is defined to be our true self when we are naked, as nothing is used to cover any parts of the body, the creation of Mother Nature given to us, as nothing is to be hidden under layers of clothing, as we show what we have, what we possess. It is also defined to be private, to be kept away from the crowd, to be shown only to our dearest; to the person we’ve chosen. To express ourselves, to tell the stories of ours, to share what we’ve learned, what we’ve earned, to be ourselves in front of others is yet another explanation based on the word ‘naked’. There are girls who think naked resembling sexy, seductive and attractive and boys who not prefer naked, but semi-transparent, mysterious. Similarly, there are people who express every thought, every ideas to the person they love, being ‘naked’ when it comes to their feelings, to show that they care, they trust whereas there are those who share only parts of their stories to the people around, not in the sense of not having faith in others, but simply want to keep it to themselves, as those are the memories which possess only by the owner itself, not the third parties. Similar actions do not bring out the same consequences; being naked might have strengthen the bond between two, as they get to know each other better, be it physically or mentally, or set those two further apart, as they realized they do not belong to each other when they understand it better. Being mysterious on the other hand, has great effect on provoking the curiosity of others, as they are taking it as a challenge, to know one particular person better, however, it may also keep the others away, when they get tired solving the mystery as the time goes by. Anyway, it is our choice whether to be naked or not, as long as we are comfortable enough with the option we’ve made.

Cell Phones

Long ago, a parent said she can never understand why most teenagers in the current days keep their cell phones by their sides 24/7, who later on went nuts for not having hers during an outing. Rather ironic I suppose, since the parent itself cannot live without the hand phone nowadays, though it might not apply to all. Why does cell phone even exist in the first place? Why people even bother to buy one? Perhaps it is all about the easier communication between one and another or to ease the lonely hearts of many. Long before the existence of these communicating machines, we have letters to send our regards, to show that we care and to link us from one to another, not to mention we ended up looking out the windows every now and then, hoping to receive a reply from the other corner of the Earth. With the latest technology, we do not need to wait for ages in order to hear the voices we have been missing so much and yet, we would still check our cell phones every moment possible. Does that not mean that we are afraid to be alone, where our existence is not acknowledged? Be it millions of times one asks to leave him alone, be it trillion times one says he does not like to have people around, be it a zillion times one sits at the corner, staring into the air, there would be times where one does not want to be left behind, to be alone, to be forgotten. Even the lone wolf is not alone; as it travels in group, leading the group and protects the group. What about mankind?

Dirty? Think Again

It was a camp within the woods, where river crossing was one of the activities being held. The lake wasn’t as clear as we usually see in the advertisements, which is understandable; there were plant like organisms, not forgetting the mud as it was shallow enough, with the water level to our waist. As usual, the boys wouldn’t mind lining up, taking their turns jumping in, whereas most of the girls would be, “Gosh, this is disgusting! It’s so dirty in there! I’m so not going in.” including the owner of this blog. Come to think of it, perhaps we should take that as one of the arts of nature, instead of naming it using our very own expressions. When we are not familiar with places, objects, or any living beings, not knowing the what, how and why, we tend to keep our distance with them. For instance, a lady moves the bird nest to another corner so that the birds wouldn’t dirty the floor with all the twigs and stuff during nest building; organisms which one does not usually see would eventually become something new to that particular person, where some may run for their lives, or have a closer look. From another point of view, the living organisms other than us human beings would have see us as aliens, something different, something big or the opposite, or even dirty too, just like how we define them in words. We have people chasing after the ‘outsiders’, yelling, “You stupid furry animals, don’t you dare come to my house ever again!” forgetting the creatures are part of this land, as all living beings share and live in one, be it somewhere where the sun shines or the other way round; that we have fur which is more commonly known as hair, with different quality and quantity.

Listeners

According to certain group, listening to stories of others might be a little dull; however, it is a way of helping the others in order to lift up their burden, thus feeling better and brighten up their day. Indeed, when people come to us and share their problems or sort, they expect us to understand; and when they expect us to understand, they expect us to give them advice; and when we do, they might not be able to accept it, thus conclude that we don’t understand them. Still, it is undeniable that listening is a way of helping others, be it not much effect. There are people who have been the listeners of others for a period of time, leaving the impression that they are “problem proof”, need no the advice of anyone else, which is the wrong concept. Do note that even the toughest man has his very own weakness. We do know that there are different cycles around us, life cycle, carbon cycle and so on. Similarly, we have our very own cycle when it comes to listening. When we listen to this particular person, he on the other hand would be listening to others, not to mention there would be time where we need listeners too. There are different ways of getting listeners, certain people prefer to share their problems to one particular person or sort, for he is not in contact with any friends cycles of theirs, thus the so called problem would not spread across; also, there are those who would tell their problems to different people, be it someone close or good in giving advice. Appreciate others and appreciate ourselves, for being the listeners.

Questions For All

When one says there’s nothing to be afraid of, it doesn’t mean that the others are not afraid and similarly, when one thinks that what he has said wouldn’t offend anyone else, it might not seem to be the same towards others. Is one counted as kind hearted as he said he is, when he would have chased away the birds nesting in the garden if he didn’t take them as good luck charms? Does one really care for the environment as he said he is, when he doesn’t mind leaving the car outside, releasing the carbon monoxide into the air? Does one know everything as he said he is, when talking is all he does? How much can we do to please the others and pleasing ourselves in the same time? How perfect one wants to be to be the so called perfect? How many times we want to go through tones of regrets before we are to regret being regret? What does it mean when we are to label ourselves as failures? What does it not mean when one chooses to remain quiet, not saying a word when he has the right to do so? What else can be done if we are to give up our decisions, our choices, along with our lives?

Illusionist

Different types of magic shows there are and the magicians are sometimes known as illusionist, creating the situation and tricks. It isn’t impossible to be one of course, for practices would help perfecting the skills needed, thus able to present it on stage. However, there are times where we are the illusionist itself, not in the sense of performing tricks, entertaining people, but to create this illusion, telling ourselves that something is happening or sort, though it isn’t. We have people who want to be strong, want to set a very good impression to all and yet, they couldn’t accept the pain given by their lives and choose to ignore it; that is not strong, but to act one, an illusion. Also, there are those who have been living in the world where everyone does not trust each other, as if betrayal would take over anytime, anywhere, not to mention doubts and questions often pop up in their mind, creating more fear. Perhaps it is the truth that we shouldn’t trust the people around, especially when it comes to the reality, when we step into the outside world, who knows? Sometimes the magic trick is so real that even the audiences thought it is real, similarly, there are times where we are blindfolded by questions and doubts, after several times of imagining the worst, we thought the worst has occurred and eventually, it does. Audiences do know what they’ve seen, what the magician has performed is an illusion; people around do sense our intention sometimes and when we are to apply, they would do the same.

Trainees

Listening to the complaints regarding trainees being used in certain occasions, saying how much skillful manpower is needed instead of those who are in training; one did not agree much on that particular statement, for no one is born to be skillful, not after some practices being done, as talent alone does not win hard work. We have been through trial and error before we master one particular skill and similarly, one does not become professional over night. If it is to say that trainees are more likely to make mistakes compared to those who have more experiences, what about those who started the war between countries? What about those who simply box up the computer, and the next day there is this young man’s picture printed on the front page, titled “Boy committed suicide, protest the idea of not playing games”? There are the minor mistakes which bring the friendship between two to an end and also the serious cases where lives have been sacrificed simply after a button or so. Aren’t those counted as mistakes, defined as one too? We might sometimes beg for forgiveness, a second chance, but how often do we actually give the others? Trainees, as defined, are still on training, before they are to step into each profession. Time is needed in order to give birth to a child, to produce a great leader, to achieve what is necessary, so why can’t we give the trainees some time, for them to learn, to obtain and to achieve the skills needed in the days to come? Do remember the days before you are in that current position of yours when you are about to criticize the others.

Pampering Decisions

We are told to make decision based on the will, interest, and desire, not to mention we’ve got to mean it when we are to choose. To ask others favor, helping us to complete one particular task or sort is simply meaningless, when it is supposed to be the other way round, especially when it comes to showing gratitude or something similar. What have been shown in most people is that, we tend to go with the majority, not able to decide what to do, where to go, which movie to choose, unless there is somebody to speak up for us instead. Perhaps it has been quite some time where we’ve been dealing with all kinds, thus trying to be thoughtful, taking feelings of others into account, so that no one would be offended, or perhaps less. One may come up with fantastic ideas, which are original and new but would somehow stuck in no where due to certain reasons, be it unspeakable or not. How many actually visit shops to shops, just to grab something they’ve wanted, followed by the next on the list? Everybody must have their very own “to do list”, be it sitting on the couch, enjoying movie with the dearest or simply hanging around at the park alone, but are not able to be carried out due to unwanted incidents or so. Perhaps it is time to pamper ourselves a little, spend half a day or so just to do what we wanted to do, eat what we wanted to eat. So how about a cheesy wedges followed by unagi sushi?

Fantasy

There is a saying that we shouldn’t be considering the possibilities when a certain event has occurred, as most of us would usually ask ourselves “what if” after an incident. Indeed, what is done is done and we would somehow look forward to something better, especially when we made the wrong decision, or best said when we missed out the other options which might be the better choice. It isn’t in the sense of being optimistic, but regretting the decision which has been made, fantasizing the possibilities when one has taken the wrong path. Yes, it may not be good when we are to day dream, creating images and scenes which are less likely to happen in the so called reality, but it isn’t that bad after all, for one is able to come up with creative story lines and plots, something unexpected, something that never come across the mind of many. Dragons, unicorns, phoenix, centaurs and many more, creatures from the myth and story books, are they simply a mystery? Or a creation similar to “Star Dust”, where the stars are actually young women? We never know, as they can be the imagination of a person, or they actually exist in a place unknown. Though it isn’t that bad to wonder about the possibilities which might occur, we still need some reminders from time to time, not forgetting that we have another life to live up with, the current life of ours.

The Scale

When it comes to numbering, one would usually be the first number, not to mention the highest in ranking, which is why the smaller the better. However, value and rating are totally the opposite. Scaling from one to ten, we rate one particular person and event, differentiating the levels of feelings, for instance happiness, pressure and the list goes on. Some are satisfied with being just the average and some don’t, be it a number nine which represents ‘almost perfect’, not forgetting people might have rated differently from one to another, as perspectives are not equally the same. Have you ever been through the situation where all coins of four are combined in order to pay for the breads and stuff which cost RM7, with 5 cents extra? What about buying 1.5 liter of 100 plus, getting four tiny cups which usually being used to test drinks or sort, thus finish one whole bottle as if we are taking alcoholic drinks, more or less like the Chinese style few hundred years back then? Some may think it is awful, but personally, it was fun, a different way of enjoying life and yes, certain people might oppose saying that we are consoling ourselves, in spite of having such pathetic lifestyle. A very big difference in scaling and perspectives, isn’t it? Do define the word pathetic; having dozens of friends and family who are so dear and care for us, daily routine which is filled with laughter and smiles for most of the time, not having ourselves to fake out any smiles, when we are with the closest of all? Or spending about every minute with the frenemies, people who sometimes act as our friends and become the enemies on the next, showing off how good we have been in front of all eyes and start complaining when there aren’t any? We are the ones who are to set the scale, on every items, every deeds, every levels, every styles, including our very own perspectives and views.

Poem: Reunion

Long after years, we are to gather again.

At one corner of the café, we had drinks and shared.

Stories we both parties have known back then, people we have met.

Laughter and smiles, past and present, together we’ve trekked.

The once familiar faces are still the same, yet many names are to be recalled.

Rather funny if it is to say, when one being tackle by the other.

Words have been rearranged, in a slightly different ways.

Indirectly may be fit for the day, in the situation where jokes are to be told.

Time does fly, when we are enjoying ourselves.

Not realizing the moment has come, one has to depart.

Disappointed, for the session was short;

Yet still glad, for friends who have lost contacts are in touch again.

Another promise, another plan, to the next gathering which soon be held.

Hopefully, would be soon enough.

In Debt

A deed which seems impossible to be paid, a debt if we must say, an expression when one trying to show appreciation or anger, and there we would hear one most common sentence, “I owe you one”. We own the person who owes us, a general fact which sometimes not significant enough to be noticed, for one would always feel guilty, bad or embarrass when he is in debt. From the dramas we’ve learned, there are people who would use their past in order to regain one’s power, respect, or even an item, which also happens in the reality; what they have done for this particular person or organization, what one has owed them, in another words, why he is in debt from the very first place. It could be a one way, or two ways relationship, where one willing to help this particular person, for the sake of doing so or, something else. Well, there are too people who might somehow forgotten their original intentions or purposes of giving a helping hand, thus changing a deed to debt, appreciation to business, trust to doubts. No particular reasons needed when one chooses to lend his ears, spending time with those who are in need, with or without intentions, to have one in debt, and simply a sentence, “No, you do not owe me anything” when he is to repay the deeds which seem impossible, yet, possible to be paid.

Future

One defines future as something which able to benefit us to the age of 50 for the very least, instead of the time being only. Taking gaming for an example, most people would refer it as ‘no future’, except for one particular group who is lucky enough of course, to achieve what most people couldn’t. We have people questioning those who have doubted their capability, people challenging those who have questioned their future, and people trying their very best to convince those who do not have faith in the decisions being made regarding the so called future. Very often we heard people using terms such as past, present and future, not to mention we are prone to refer present to the future, linking them between one and another, despite the fact that they already are, or not. Come to think of it, one does have his very own future, even if he’s a man who holds the duty of mopping the floor in the mall, for the future would still exist, does not matter what decision a person made, what reputation a person upholds, which position he’s standing on in that particular field, except for those who choose to end their lives perhaps, we never know. We categorize living beings, objects, expressions, jobs and many more. Similarly, future too can be categorized into two, or more, varying from one person to another. One is the commonly known ‘bright future’ and the other would be ‘no future’, which still exists, but a dim one. It seems that most of us tend to ignore the existence of those who do not achieve our so called standard, things which we believe, are not beneficial enough for us to care, but still?

Questions Why

Why is our destiny destined? Why do we approach one particular group and not the other? Why do we being raised according to our own gender instead of mixing all together? Why are we limited to limited access of information? Why do we even ask why? Is everything well-planned ahead, for the sake of our future, for the sake of our lives? When we are to say life is destiny, some would stand up, wanting to go against the flow, to get hold of their own lives, to have their hands on the remote control instead of leaving it to others. When we are told to obey the rules, again, there would be somebody who disobeys and creates a phrase such that rules are meant to be broken. When one questions the love of many, which shows cruelty of mankind instead of the original purposes, bringing joy and peace, the other might oppose, saying that person itself is selfish enough to not realize the hidden meaning behind. When a person asks why, another will be able to answer, when the time is right and that person itself is ready to start listening to others. No limitations would have stop a person from doing what he plans to do, for he ignores the so called limitations, which don’t even exist from the first place. Truth and belief are not much different between one and another; when one chooses to accept the belief which has been channeling around the human race, the belief itself would become the truth, for truth is what people would have believe in, but not all belief is the truth.

Colourcloud

“Whatever you feel, whatever you think, whatever you sense, is what it means to you,” another quote taken from random television show. One holds a different perspective from another and similarly, one not necessary knows what one has in mind. Very often, we tend to guess what the others are thinking, what it means for what they are currently doing and the reason we are having this particular feeling after seeing what people having their hands on. Due to our nature of not able to see through a person’s mind, most of us that is, are prone to hold on to our stand, our opinion even we are told regarding certain issue, what, how and why, does not matter how many times it has been repeated, over and over again. Indeed, we can be good listeners, but that does not mean we would change our views simply after some stories and ideas which have been shared with, does it? When we are to believe in expectation, expect the unexpected, it would no longer be the unexpected when it actually happens; when we do not expect the unexpected, the unexpected would somehow remain as the unexpected. Similarly, when we are to accept what the others have said, what the others have shared, whatever we feel, whatever we think and whatever we sense would not be the same anymore, whereas none of the above mentioned would have changed if we hold on to our very own style, very own point of view. To feel, to think, to sense, is what it meant to be, our very own way to live and to deal with our lives.

Thoughts in Terms

When we have one particular thought in mind, is that really what we desire? Answers to our problems? Something we want it from the bottom of our hearts, or perhaps we should say, subconsciously? Could it be the intuition? Or fear? It has been long enough for us to come up with terms describing our thoughts, explaining our ideas, defining what we think the words should be defined and yet, it is not enough. We have insecurity, doubts, worries and many more; still, there are lots more of them, the feelings that are yet to be named, to be called and to be expressed. How do we explain the thoughts which come across our mind, without us seeing them coming? Couples who see no future, way before they started their relationship; students who imagine themselves not getting good grades, parents nagging, teachers sighing; the person who always the first to be in mind when one is at his worst in the darkest night; hugs from that particular being in the dreams and so on. We have exact answers to mathematic questions, solutions which vary from one to another depending on the situation and conditions provided in physic and chemistry, but we do not have one for our thoughts and feelings, as they are more complex than what we have learned, what we have known.

Surviving Desire

“With sufficient amount of food supply, only comes desire for money, fame and power,” quote taken from a friend. It’s true, very true. When question regarding the greatest weakness of mankind is asked, different answers can often be heard. The desire to survive in one can be so strong that any actions which need to be done will be taken, ignoring the fact that certain objects or even people must be sacrificed. Animals kill for the right to survive, the right to live. As part of the animal kingdom itself, we human beings too are most likely to do something similar in the current days, though we have higher intelligence, higher skills to achieve what the rest of the animals couldn’t have. Indeed, there are several ideas on the greatest weakness of all which commonly agree by most people. However, if we are to go way deeper than it is now shown, the very root of all answers mentioned, survival plays a very important role, a desire which one can never resist, unless that particular person has given up his hope to live. We fight for food, when there is food deficiency; as the world moving forward to higher demands, we fight for money; in order to earn more money, we need fame; and most of all, the power, which many believe, will be able to bring in more food, more money and more fame. Back to the origin again, we would see the desire to live, the desire to survive, coping with the pace the world now has, the greatest root of the greatest weakness of mankind.

Familiarity

Waking up in the morning and we would usually first see our own reflection in the mirror. As time goes by, we begin to be familiar with the other ‘being’ in the reflected world. Familiarity is interesting, as it would somehow affect our thoughts, preferences and socializing skills. As studies shown, our friends like the direct image of ours better compared to the mirror image, for they are more familiar with it whereas we, the owner of the reflection would prefer the latter, which is the mirror image. People may think that we have changed if they are being shown the reflected image of ours because our facial features are not symmetrical, or even overreacted when things are not exactly the same as they used to be. We may not know a person so well to the point where we actually know what he’s thinking, but we tend to make assumptions according to what we are familiar with, what we know about him. We would probably take it real harsh, assuming he is having problems, if he does not behave the way he usually does, though the intuition of ours may hits the bull’s eye at times. Guess we just can’t help it but to take things as something new when they don’t appear to be the same.

Temporary Dipole

Temporary dipole occurs when the electrons are not evenly distributed, forming the electropositive and electronegative charge. Out on a street with people passing by, the unfamiliar faces may be familiar in the days to come, or maybe not, for the fate might put us together some day and get to know each other better. We have our own life, the old man across the street, the bird nesting up on a tree and the driver combing his hair in the car, not knowing dozens of eyes are staring at him. With different circles, different contacts, we’ve lived. However, there are times where one’s life intersects with another, similar to the occurrence of temporary dipole, short and sweet, or not. Connections will be made, reaction occurs and products may or may not be formed. This is life. We tend to use phrases such as “I have my own life to live”, “Stay out of my life” forgetting the fact that intersection does exist between two or more, where similar memories have been shared, with different perspectives at times. When friends tell us not to worry even when they are at the worst because we have our own life to catch up with, we stay by their side for that is the time where our supports are needed most, also, the time to let them know that they are part of our life.

Mistakes Being Made

People make mistakes, some are noticeable and some don’t. The point is, do we need corrections from time to time? Or just let it be? What is done is done, but it doesn’t mean that correction is not necessary, though sometimes it is put in such a way. As we all know, there are mistakes which cannot be forgiven by giving apologies, buying presents or publishing in the newspapers and sometimes even death does not make the difference. There are times where people get annoyed by those who have been correcting them whole day long, and there are those who choose not to say a word either for they do not wish to irritate this particular person, unless there is a need to do so. Major and minor, mistakes and sins, the form it might take, the form it might not be. Mistakes may lead to sins and sins are the mistakes being made, with or without knowing. To be forgiven or not, the decision is no longer in any hands, for it is up to fate, whether people choose to forgive or the other way round but most importantly, we learn from them, the mistakes being made.

Remembering and Memorizing

There are things which we have to memorize in order to remember better and of course, there are also those which we don’t need memorizing at all. We can definitely memorize what we remember, but not necessary remembering what we have memorized. We may be memorizing this particular formula or definition over and over again, or we may choose to remember it after thousands of applications on the particular topic. It is all depends on how we use it really. However, there are those who tend to misuse the skills, by memorizing how much they have done for this particular person, got mad when they are not appreciated and started off with something which they believe, can make that particular person regret for not appreciating them, instead of remembering the good old days together, hoping the person would have found another sort of happiness which he or she failed to see in them. It does not apply only on communications or relationships between one another, but also our life. We do not memorize the bad memories which have been haunting us, we choose to remember them, for remembering is something flexible and so we are able to look into the past and smile, totally the opposite of memorizing which is actually fixed. Same goes to the sweet and heartwarming moments with friends and family, not forgetting the dearest, for we remember them always, instead of memorizing.

Recording Happiness

If it is to say we do not need recordings in order to remember the very moments in our life, then why is it that we tend to forget certain important things at times? Indeed, we would have remembered the unforgettable memories, but it is too pretty common that we may eventually forget the original feelings when we were in that particular situation for the very first time, less excited, less emotions. Happiness is what most people are looking for, and yet, not many of them manage to get their hands on what they have wished for, in another word, they may not realize the fact that they’ve already achieved their goal, the great happiness. Certain groups may define happiness as something real big, real meaningful, or to say the most obvious, most significant, which also able to catch the attention of many. We do know that time is made up of seconds, minutes, hours and years, that one compound is made up of several types of atoms or maybe more, that our body is made up of complex structures and reactions. But how many do know that the great happiness is actually made up of smiles, tears and joy? That the little insignificant emotions we have in life are to create such wonderful, joyful, demanding emotion of all, the happiness? We do not ask why one smiling always, but to ask what brings one’s smile, because we smile when we are happy, especially when we smile without knowing we actually did. That is one of the definitions of happiness, I believe. Read through the messages which have been left by the others ages ago, if it once lifted up the smiles on the faces, it will definitely have the same effect again.

Study and Learn

It is not necessary to study but it is a must to learn. In school, we study to learn and of course, in some cases, certain people would learn to study, learn to learn. Researches done on one specific base are counted as studies, while each and everything we learned or caught on by accidents are known as learning process. We may choose to study one particular field, one particular person, one particular object, but we would never be able to choose not to learn anything at all, for whatever we do, whatever we hear, whatever we choose is a process of learning in our life. We learn to speak, we learn to capture hearts of many, we learn to befriend with friendships and we learn to say ‘no’. We learn from a single word, we learn from a single phrase, we learn from a simple act and we learn from a simple handshake. It is fine to fail in studies, but not in learning, as studies are fixed, but not learning. When we are able to learn, we are able to study; when we have learned many, we continue learning and we continue studying, be it something relating to our life, our homeland or our memories.

Taking and Receiving

What is the difference between ‘take’ and ‘receive’? Yes, both are actions taken and both recipients are the same person, but, the former is done based on our own will while the latter is based on the free will of others. We choose to take what we desired, be it something belongs to us or not and we receive what the others want us to have, could be something we desired or what they think we would be. Very often, we take love from the others, and receiving it at the same time. It is undeniable that we need love to survive in this world, to avoid from trapping ourselves in darkness which does not exist in the first place, to keep the circle goes round. Receive is somehow equals to accept, whereby we accept what we received but not everything we received is what we can accept. We tend to take things for granted, receiving what the others are giving us and sometimes not able to accept them, for they might not be what we desired. It is to take, to receive or to accept?

Not So General

Throughout the year, the general paper has been teaching nothing else but politics and how the government functions in the current days, never once knew politics are categorized under general knowledge. What’s general and what’s not? Sweeping statements and facts based on specific topics. Perhaps there are times where we cannot concentrate on one particular task, in fact, it happens all the time. When we are involved in certain conversations, the main objective of that particular topic tends to change from time to time, from food to girls, gossips to politics, studies to sports. Even when we are reading, or you may put it as studying, our mind prone to wander off, with or without knowing. Well, it too can be said that, the topic links from one to another, not in the sense that they actually related to each other, but the moment when the idea strikes our head. It is counted as relevant, in a way, isn’t it? There are up and down in life, different wavelength of brainwaves, so why not the general to not so general? Specific to not so specific? Besides, there is no certain definition of anything or everything we are currently having our hands on, since it varies from one to another, not to mention the new ideas keep coming in from time to time.

Pauses and Ends

To say a wonderful dream pauses or to be ended? Heard one’s opinion that it actually comes to an end, of that particular chapter whereby a whole new page would be flipped through at the times to come, telling another story of our own. We have people who lost contact with their old pals, recalling the old days where bunch of them hang around together, saying the very sentences which have started off their friendship in the first place. Desperately, or maybe not, some would try their very best, in order to reclaim this long lost friendship. In such cases, it is to say the friendship pauses or ended? Perhaps it varies from a person to another, but personally, both can be used, based on the subject of course. The story of our life pauses from one chapter to another, but the story with one and another ends as we continue reading the book of life. The so called friendship is counted as coming to an end, when two actually lost contact with each other, as we never know when the next encounter would be, which can be days, weeks, or years. Till then, a whole new friendship is to blossom, instead of continue from the previous one, for one no longer approaches the other in the same old way.

The Eyes

Eyes are the windows to our soul, the other path where we are able to figure one’s feelings, one’s desire. We have seen the eyes which smile, the smiles which able to steal our soul; the eyes which have been crying for help, through pictures and photos; the eyes which have shouted in anger, to release their stress in their daily life; the eyes which always show one’s emotion, in a way they wanted to. These eyes are the eyes of angels, eyes of innocence, where they are unlikely to be hidden from the crowd, unless it is well-trained. It doesn’t take many experiences or time to obtain such a skill to look at the souls hidden at the back of those eyes, as a sincere heart is all it takes. A heart warming smile does not come from the curving lips, but the eyes, not only able to brighten up one’s day, but also, lifted up the smile on that particular person as well. What is the current emotion those eyes of yours are showing?

Poem: The Last Which Last

Moment being spent after a year,

With that particular person, that particular smile.

A familiar stranger, when both are together,

Due to the ages which fly.

One out of two they have been meeting each other,

Treasure the time together, before he is to fly.

The first was awkward, second was fine,

Third was better, and fourth was great.

The best and the worst of all, is the seventh,

The very last outing since the time has come.

Mixture of emotions being stirred,

Creating an unexplainable taste.

A very fine moment which last,

Till he is once back again.

Another year to spend online and cell phones,

In order to communicate.

Still, it is believed to last till the very last,

Before they are to see each other again, face to face.