New Year Eve

Last day of the year, people gather around at one place, celebrating the last few hours to a whole new year. Food, drinks and all sorts of entertainments are probably the only activities on that day. When the clock strikes 12, people cheer and hug. With tins in the hand, they spray, whoever shows up, greeting each other. Another kind of destiny, that brings us all together, though we may not know each other.

Bravery

As time flies, we discover our weaknesses. Realising it bit by bit, day by day. Some choose to hide it with their very best, some don't. Certain people deny the facts when the weaknesses have been pointed out and cover it with everything they have. It's rather fake, really. Remembering a friend shared his past, telling how hot-tempered he was but it's all over now. As if it is no longer something to be ashamed of, but to be proud of. This is what we called, bravery.

Power Hungry vs Capability

People known one who would die for posts as power hungry. Personally, it isn't something that bad, if and only if, that particular person is capable enough to handle it. There are people who took up several tasks, not knowing the responsibilities that have to be carried out. At the end of the day, not able to complete the duty. So, being power hungry is one thing, capability is another. To be acknowledged, power hungry isn't the only way, but showing your capability too.

Pride

Someone told me, one who has lower education might be unreasonable at times, specially the elders. As one doesn't feel comfortable when all sorts scientific reasons given by the younger yet higher educated generations. Therefore, one starts scolding and yelling, wanting to protect one's pride. However, education isn't the only factor which causes such problem, one's past too may be playing part of the roles. Let's say one person had been discriminated by the people around for years, not being respected as who he is. When the time has come, he will fight back and thus, gaining respects. From that onwards, he draws a line and nobody can cross over. For he refuses going back to the old days, where he had his worst nightmares. Believe it or not, everyone has its own pride. It might be hidden deep down, it might be not. Whichever it is, pride lives within us, waiting to be discovered.

Distraction

During a discussion, we often get carried away from the original topic. Either way beyond the topic itself, or nothing relevant at all. Plenty of distractions lay around and without knowing, we might eventually end up else where. In life, we tend to get distracted from what we truly want. Blindfolded by different issues, it is pretty hard for a person to snap out of it. Focussing is one of the easiest theory in life, but also, one of the hardest practical of all.

Starter

Whatever we do, one will have to get things started. Remembering a person said, "This will be a great changes to all and I don't suppose we should do it now." After all these years, human beings made plenty of changes to the world. When the time is right, certain changes shall be made and it will have to begin with one person. Anyway, anyhow. Being reluctant doesn't help much. Let's say in a relationship, one wants to know what is in the mind of that particular person but dare not ask. Eventually, one will get nothing but tons of worries. So, instead of worrying what that person is thinking, might as well as start a conversation and ask.

Poem: Nostalgia

Walking pass the shops, varieties of food presenting in sight.

Jellies, nuggets and many more, bringing him back to the past.

Days where he was once in love with all sorts of food.

Only sweet but no other tastes, able to cheer him with.

Years have gone, and the little boy too.

Becoming fine young man he has, with whole new perspectives and choices.

Not to mention he is now fond of other tastes too.

Sour and bitter, but no longer sweet for all.

Dealing with problems in life, he hides his past behind.

Forgetting what his world was, when he was once a child.

With the food from his time, his memories are back.

Flashing through his brain, he remembers them.

Friends in the park, together, they ran.

Searched all places in town, they ruled the area.

Fighting as usual, with papers and gangs.

And lastly, the parting gifts given by the pals.

Separated by miles of road, their friendship has come to an end.

Yet, times where they were summoned to the office is back on track.

As they are once connected again, talking about the past back then.

The bittersweet memories they had.

Surprises

An unexpected call lifted up the day on Christmas Eve. Surprise, surprise. Something simple, yet able to cheer one up. Spending the night under full moon light, with several friends as company. Everything was fine. However, with the surprises coming in, everything turned out to be great! It helps decorating one's life, embeds into one's heart. Something similar to happening events and people. It might be something simple, but you will never know how much it means to someone else. Therefore, never be stingy when it comes to surprises. Also, we should appreciate the surprises given by the people around, even if we already knew what is coming up next.

Never never

Cleaning up the room, took out several items from the past. Were once holding very dear memories and yet, as the time flies, they turned out to be meaningless. Folios since primary, to the projects given in secondary were stored in a specific area. Funny thing that is, from souvenirs, they transformed into junks. Not the way they appeared to be, but the way we see it. Yesterday they were something precious, today they are hidden somewhere cannot be seen and tomorrow they may once again appear under the sunlight, in the dustbin. People says, never say never. Indeed, we never know what lies ahead on the path. Something similar to the situation above, things change according to our point of view. However, here's something new. We may use the word 'never' when we really, really mean it.

Downgrading

When a person secretly adores someone else, he will be an admirer. If he dares not take actions yet asking dozens and dozens of questions from people around, it will be nothing but annoying. An annoying admirer. Let's say he does not believe the person he is going after already in a relationship, thus starts investigating, he will be downgraded. From an admirer to a stalker. A stalker who most people dislike. If we don't take actions but only use the mouth, nothing will come out of it. However, if we overdo it, we won't get what we want either.

Passersby

Everyday, we have thousands of people passing us. Does not matter in the car, on highways or wherever we go. At times, we take them as passersby, not paying much attention on them. However, these man who appeared in our stages of life might eventually turn out to be a very dear friend in the future. Even if once we were nobody to one another. When the time comes, the bond in between will form and thus, bringing a new friendship to life.

Poem: Voices

Thousands of voices wandering around, looking for the right person.

In the songs, in the lyrics, in the words they lie.

Awaiting the day when they can move someone else's heart.

Thus bringing changes to one's life.

Messages being delivered from one to another.

Till the very end, where it has no ends at all.

Reaching somebody is the only task given to the voices.

And yet how many actually getting them?

Realising how important is the message and being moved?

Let It Go

A friend asked, "How can you be so friend with him though he once fell for you and not me?" This, probably happened to the others too. Such situation often alters depending on few factors. Who, why and how. Who the person you dealing with, why it didn't work out between you both and how he handles it after the decision is made. If the person doesn't get bothered much about it, and holds on to the concept 'we are still friends no matter what happened', then the friendship remains. With no complaints for not accepting him. Even if he holds the slightest grudge against you for it didn't work out the way he wanted it to, then sad to say, he's losing the friendship. There is no such excuse as "I tried to maintain our friendship but you seemed to be avoiding me." How can one be avoiding that particular person if he himself is fine with it and are still friends? How is it possible that you will notice it if you no longer care about how that person feels about you? Whether you both can be together? It is the matter that you can really let it go, or you are still looking for your chances.

Memories

When we move on in life, our memories tend to stop at certain part of the chapters. It might be something sad, happy or even nothing significant. Why, we do not know. Unlike the nonliving items, memories are something that live in us, as they change from time to time. Not to mention they may somehow alter from what really happened. It may be something inclining us to believe or interpreted wrongly.

Division

It does not take a friend to blend into a group within few hours, but a friend's friend too. Several trips showed group dividing is an essential process. Not something on purpose, but it happens automatically. However, these smaller groups out of the bigger one do not have specific members as they change from time to time. Might last for hours or days. It probably takes a small incident to have such division to occur, or even, a several hours away from the original 'group members'. Preference during specific time too may influence the people in group. Kind a funny, but true.

Spoiled

What is the first thing coming across your mind when you see someone behaving like a spoiled kid? Annoying? Immature? What makes a person spoiled? Overpampering and 'excessive' love from the people around. Indeed, sometimes a spoiled child can drive you up the wall. But that's our point of view. What about the child's perspectives? He might be enjoying it. For being surrounded by love is great, does not matter whether it is way too much. There is a certain period of time, we would like to be the one who is being spoiled, instead of the person who pampers. Just that it depends on the occasions, timing, and surroundings. It may be the time when you are with your lover, or hanging out with friends.

Intrusion

Went to Lake View for some bug catching activities. Pretty easy to spot them, that's for sure. Just that, it depends on whether you can catch them. Walking on the green, you can see them hopping from one place to another. Whichever part of the grass you've laid your feet on, insects will be showing up. Grasshoppers, crickets, butterflies and dragonflies. Some flew, some hopped, trying to free themselves from danger, if there is any, whenever there was a slight movement in their neighbourhood. However, things might just not going the way they wanted it to be. My friends and I managed to catch plenty of them. Why did that happen? Because they reacted to our intrusion. Let's say we are the insects, and the intrusion is problems in life. Sometimes we are just like them, choose to avoid the trouble, ignore it, running away from it. In the end? Might as well as ended up like the bugs, being captured. If we didn't avoid and still get caught, never give up. Fight back and who knows? Maybe we will be able to escape. Just like one of my captives this morning, it flew when it had it's chance. Leaving the empty container behind.

A Goal

"Which type of guy would be your ideal partner?" a friend asked. "Ever since primary, I've already set a goal, that my girlfriend must be active in sports and smart." another friend said. Sometimes I wonder, is their type of partner somebody who they admire? Or someone they truly in love with? People may say, setting yourself a goal is something to keep you moving on in life, as you know where to head to and what to do. But relationship? Probably due to personal preference. Some want to handle it rationally, some go according to their feelings and some, go with the flow. Personally, placing an aim in such indescribable 'incident' may causes us missing the right one, or even, misinterpret our own feelings.

As a whole

A research at Cambridge University shows we human read the words as a whole instead of letter by letter. As long as the first and second letter are in the right place, we will still able to recognize the word, does not matter in what order the letters are. When it comes to words, yes we may recognize it as a whole, but socialising? Maybe or maybe not. We usually focus on one point when it comes to dealing with people, the outer layer instead of the inner part. Sometimes we even forget the strong point of one, while busy worrying about the weaknesses. A friend told me how they grade each other among friends, from height to intelligence, to physical appearance and personalities. Not just by specific part of theirs, but also, as a whole.

Choices

"Why are there so many options?" a man said. "Don't you have more choices?" a lady asked. Some likes to be surrounded by different alternatives, and some don't. The difference in between is, one knows what oneself want and the other doesn't. Not many know what they truly wanted and this, often causes troubles. Due to this reason, some might even hold on to all sorts of options they have in hand and slowly, they pick out the best. Putting in the consideration, whether it may turn out good and everlasting. Yes, they may do so, but what about the rest? It ain't just wasting their time but also the others. Make up the mind and get over with it. Worthy or not, it is meant to be, the destiny.

Happening

Away from the house for hours might be something good. Tiring maybe, but fun. Extra class in school, bit boring. However, it depends on how you look at it. Make it fun as possible. Happening, as what they said. A badminton game, then down to SS2 for lunner (lunch and dinner). Shop at the night market, with Digi promoters everywhere and the water drizzling from the sky. Vouchers and balloons. Several types of food in hand and enjoy it on the way back home. Fuji apple, shaomai, peanuts and soya milk. Wasn't in the schedule, but it ended up to be. Happening and something different. Decorating our life, make it more colourful and memorable. Even a friend of mine said, "Mixing with happening people is fun." So why not we do something which is not part of the original plan? Once in a while.

Hide and Seek

Once in a while, we tend to seek our past in a person. "She shares the same hobbies with her, they are so alike, from physical appearance to favourite activities." Such phrases often heard from the people around. Putting the hope in a different individual, hoping to find something familiar, relating to the past. It's sort a unfair to that person, for he is not being treated as who he is, but someone he is not. When the time has come, we are destined to put our past aside, not holding onto it. Even though we meet someone who shares something in common with that particular person, it is a test given by our fate, whether we can let it go. Learn to appreciate the beauty hidden in different individuals, not just the similarities, but also the differences, the uniqueness.

Discovering, regaining

"She changed him," a friend said. Come to think of it, do we really change a person? Or we discover what has been hiding beneath? Another friend said, "It's not that I'm being serious all the time, but I just didn't show another me." Personally, one hides another part of oneself deep down, or does not even realise the other part is living in within. Time too might put up several layers on one, and so the others miss the real oneself. However, few simple ways may bring us to another part of a person's heart. Simply go to the park and you can see them enjoying themselves, trying out all sorts of facilities provided, even a 20 years old will be queuing up for the swing. A nature hidden deep down inside their heart, regaining their youth, back to the time when they were once 9 years old. Those who chose to put their true self aside, a key is all it takes to open their heart. It may be a friend, place, food and sorts. Discovering, regaining.

Poem: Old Friend

There I saw your familiar face, in the squarely base.

With the name I can't recall, you wrote me a message.

"Are you Ping Ying?", it said.

Shocking, was the only word I had.

And there you started, telling all the stories.

Bit by bit, you filled up my memories.

Back to the old days we had been.

Meeting old friend is really great.

Yet the time died away, bringing the day to an end.

Happy, but sad.

For I woke up in my bed, not knowing where I am.

Thinking hard, I've tried, but nothing came to my mind.

Except the dream during that time.

Even the name you have told, became nothing.

Not a single bit.

Insecurity

We've been told to work maintaining a relationship. Why work? Probably due to the insecurity in us, which we all have. Right on this moment, we might be smiling, thinking of what that person has said to us. Happy and sweet. However, we may not be feeling the same way on the next. It takes only seconds to cheer, also, seconds to sadness, doubtfulness. Does not matter the two are fall apart, or seeing each other from time to time. Sometimes we know what kills a relationship, still, we have not overcome the matter, as it is pretty hard to do so.

Purposes

Whatever we do, wherever we go, there's a purpose. Something we choose, something we decide. From meeting someone new, to not contacting a friend. Purposes lie within. People says, purpose of life is life of purpose. Ain't just saying how important the purposes are, but also shows how frequent they occur. However, they can be something good, or bad. It depends on the person who make the choice, to be a friend, or foe.

Nonbeliever

One says, "I am no longer believe in love. People don't love me and yet, I will still make them happy." Rather pessimistic and sarcastic. A person who does not believe in love, is something similar to giving up the happiness, friendship and family. Nothing but a living zombie, with no love but sadness, hatred and anger. A person who can make the rest happy, is by love. A pessimist who always think the love is absent from his life, is more likely to give nothing. For he does not realise the love surrounding him, with care.

Temporary

Friends around us changing from time to time, does not matter how close we are. Sometimes, we take their absence in life as permanent effect, not knowing it might be temporary. And very often, this sillyness will be broken by one message from long lost friend. An ordinary message saying, "I'm glad that you can make it. We've been waiting for you." is more than what it takes, to show us the bond in between is not dead. Even if we are not as close as we used to be, the memories we had together will hold us as close as possible. When it starts fading away, we would somehow realise, tiny pieces of the memory itself remain.

Exceptional

Special. Unique. What people commonly ask for when it comes to preference. Whether to buy a gift or choosing a partner. Some, define them according to the price tag and some, depends on the efforts they have put in. And of course, including the designs. One may think, the higher price it costs, the better quality. On the other hand, some work out every single muscles to produce the best. Take gardening as an example, one puts in efforts and so the plants bloom. Whichever ways, the final goal would always be, the exceptional. To be remembered, to be unique, to be special.

Priceless? Not

"You have no idea how much I've spent on you. And just why can't you see how much I care about you?" Sounds familiar, don't you think? In our life, we may encounter such situation. People come to us, listing the items they've got us, including the price. We tend to forget that getting someone a gift, is what we want to do and ain't just to win a person's heart. One who received it, would appreciate it, as it is priceless. However, by stating the price of all items you've got for that particular person, is something we may call, insincerity. Not to mention the gifts are no longer priceless. The idea of amount of money that has been spent on one determines how much you care is rather, awkward. Even if you say that particular person of yours is materialistic, it won't work.

Moments in Life

Every moment in life plays an important role, as they may determine your mood, impression of the others and many more. Even including when you want to take pictures, as you may take a several and choose the best among all. Camera captures the moment of your face, which reflects your life in a way. Take it once, following by the next, the facial expressions look somehow different. The smile, the eyes and the feelings reflected. Right at this moment, you may be relieved but started worrying on the next. You may not go back to the moment which had passed, however, something similar might come to you. Somehow, some day.

Knowing and Understanding

"You never been through all these, you certainly do not know how I feel. What makes you think that you understand me?" It's a fact that can never be denied. How could someone possibly know one's feelings? Not to say no, but each and everyone of them? Probably the ratio one to zillions. Anyway, knowing one's feeling and understand one's are totally different. As they said, be in one's shoe. Yes, we may imagine ourselves being in a person's situation. And of course, we might know how that person felt. However, we seriously need to go through what that person went through to actually understand it. Just like reading an article, description on how the writer felt when he's far away from home. From the words, we may start visualizing the feelings of being homesick. We know how it feels, but only when we are in such situation, we truly understand each and every words in that essay meant. So, you know or you understand?

Futakoi

Something I learnt from an anime, Futakoi. We should hold on to the feelings we have when we are in love, does not matter whether that particular person feels the same way too. Whoever that person is, one must be unique and special in a way that attracts us. Cherish the moment, they said. It isn't just about treasuring the moment, but to lock it deep inside the heart. And so whatever happens in the future, we would still have the memories and not holding grudge towards the person. In times, we tend to break up the connections when it is the last straw and leaving the good old days behind. Why not we try sitting down and start thinking, "was he a good friend?" If he was, and he still is, it's a waste to lose such a pal. Isn't it?

Law of Attraction

Sometimes we go like, "the more efforts we put into something, the bigger the let down, so let's not put too much hope in this." Even at times, we might hear complains on, "the more I don't want it to happen, it happens." In contrary, there are those who hold optimistic point of view too. Therefore, certain people says the universe is functioning based on the law of attraction. The more you think about the things that you do not want, the higher chances it will happen. For example, when one says, "I don't wanna be late, I don't wanna be late." And? He's late for the day. Basically, the concept is about being optimistic, think about the good things instead of the bad ones. So, cheer up and enjoy the day. *wink*

Tone

When you share an experience with friends, you may be telling them stories or, showing off. With a sentence like "I got 70 for my paper", people might say, "that's great!" or even, "show off." Why? Probably due to your tone when saying it. Let's say, you raising up your voice in a conversation, friends might comment on it, asking why you are so angry, even if you didn't mean it. Basically, it's based on how they feel as you speak, to determine your 'purpose' of telling stories. Also, it is too depends on your relationship with that person, or more like whom that person consider you as.

Poem: Butterfly

With beaker in my hand, I walk to the place where I last stand.

Squating on the land, I reach out my hand.

To dig upon the sand, until the very end.

And there it lays, my experiment soil.

Mother of the plants, nanny of the bugs.

Where she breeds and raises them up.

Purple flying pass my sight, stopping on the right.

Such gentle and tender touch too, can make it run away.

First, second and third I've tried.

Finally, it is mine, after the dragonfly.

With the remaining four legs, it stares into my eyes.

Through the container where it is being held.

Wonder, what may happen even if it shouts.

I don't want to, I said, but I have to.

Looking at the insect with four, I leave it on the floor.

At the side of the staircase, being swallowed by the hole.

The last moment of its life, of the pretty butterfly.

Pool

Remembering the day I first played pool, it was rather awkward than fun. Just imagine all your friends are pros and you are not. It's definitely not something you can master within a week or so. Going through all the missed cue(s) and wrong angle. For people like me, I will just get the cue and poke the ball, no angle, no skill, no nothing. Anyway, it feels great when you manage to get the ball in. I once went out with friends, they were real good and was telling me how we are suppose to play it. The right way. And of course, anything can happen. Not reaching your expectation perhaps. Similar to our life, don't you think? Sometimes we plan, sometimes we don't. Even if we do, things just happen, once in a while, out of expectation. To be a pro in pool, we need skills, thoughts and determination. Same concept goes to mastering our life, we sharpen our thoughts, strenghten our will power and go through all the obstacles.

长篇：幸运草．四叶女孩

“瘫在那儿，我享受着阳光专为我炮制的浴澡，驱走一身倦意。强而温柔的它，对我总是如此贴切，适中性的全身推拿，从未留下任何不雅观的黄色斑印。让我充满自信，在众同类中展现独特的气息。隐藏在内层的它，也释放着傲人的王者气魄。它，象征着我族，唯有群众特异之士方能拥有。它，是枚外形特出的徽章，以我王及其妻儿为主。王上的执，王后的慈，公主的柔，王子的勤。传闻外界生物对此徽章产生兴趣，甚至乎改变其中含义。”

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四周环绕着绿色物体，采取空中的食物，籍由身上的器官排出清新的无声屁。洒在地上的色彩，尾随着风中的歌曲，拼出各式各样的舞步。妩媚之余，也引来狂蜂浪蝶，像是观音兵，想一亲芬芳。较为内向的，则默默呆在一旁，掌中握有甜蜜，让路过者有歇息之处，一解口中干涩。这一切、一切，像极大型娱乐场所，只为博众人一笑。可这一切、一切，却不足以打开她的心房，对她那副愁容更是起不了作用。

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她孤立的倩影，照射在那平平草原。关闭的思绪，在怡人环境衬托之下，显得格外落寞。纵使有阵阵花香，彩蝶相伴，她，仍提不了神，只许自己沉浸在另一时空。种种痛心回忆，陆续闪烁在脑海里。一幕接一幕，掩盖其余较为甜蜜的记忆。一刀接一刀，刺进心里。除了流泪，还是流泪。除了酸痛，别无他味。

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她放眼望去，任由思绪在风中舞动，后落在草原一端，吸引她的注意力。朝向那呼唤着她的声音走去，来到了煞是相同的草地，乍看之下毫无分别。她冷冷一笑。连内心深处的另一个她也要玩弄自己吗？在她挥手离去之时，潜意识的看看脚下那片绿，发现了心型叶片。蹲坐在上方，她伸出双手触摸如此独特的造物。那么的真，那么的柔，仿佛要她不再气馁。刹那间，她发现了它，人人口中的四叶草。

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四叶、四叶，与她名字相同。是要她收下吗？心里轻声说道“谢谢你”，女孩把那拥有四颗心的叶子带走了。不知是那叶子的心，还是叶子的关系，她的步伐特别轻盈，心里头的霉气也消失了大半。原是沉重的心情，在离开那怡人环境之际，也开朗了。内心深处有股声音告诉她，一切会更美好。

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敞开家门的瞬间，愧疚之心涌上心头，女孩止住了脚步，不愿进入屋内。忆起自己与父母争执后一言不发的离去，虽说事隔数时，却不知两老会如何处置她。女孩在外犹豫片刻，最终硬着头皮进门，心想趁火山未爆发前冲入自己的避难区，以免遭殃。然而，人算不如天算，其父母早已站在门后等待她的归来。她下意识的抱住头，准备迎接那冷冷的鞭打及训话，却发现自己被涌入温暖的怀抱里。惊讶之余，她看见母亲脸上的泪痕，以及父亲那瞬间的放心一笑，后恢复往常的严肃表情，不语。如此温馨场面对女孩而言是那么的罕见。抛下一句“对不起”， 她回到了自己的房间。看着手中的四叶草，她问道：“是你吗？”。那是她一生中最傻的问题，亦是改变她生命的一刻。不待它发言，女孩将四叶草铺上一沉薄薄纸浆，制成书签，随身带着。

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学校对她而言，可说是人间地狱。在这里，时间流逝得特别慢，只因她在学业上从未有突破表现。她不认识课文中的字眼，而它们也不知道她是谁。在校园里，她算是半个透明人，朋友圈子非常小。她拿出书签，望着那心型叶片发呆，仿佛要试试它是否真有某些力量可改变命运。在她看得入神时，一女子来到她身边，兴奋得大叫起来，吓得她七魂不见三魄。女孩睁大眼睛，对这突然出现的高音女子感到讶异。而她对自己的举止感到抱歉，忙在那儿自我介绍，希望能化解先前的尴尬。殊不知，女孩并没仔细聆听，只知道她在那儿嘀咕着幸运草之类的。心里暗自高兴自己有新朋友，也开始相信这与她同名的叶片将为她带来好运。

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四叶草的出现，让她重拾信心，打开心房与外界交流。曾被她埋藏在心谷底的幽默感也渐渐被派上用场，逗得朋友乐开怀。社交圈子慢慢扩大。除此之外，朋友们还不时伸出援手，为她讲解课文中较难以理解的部分，致使她对学业产生兴趣，成绩也略为进步，父母与教师们因此感到欣慰。她清脆的笑声，爽朗的性格，让她逐渐受到异性的欢迎，后更是找到属于自己的春天。

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尚若把她与从前相比，简直判若两人。朋友曾玩笑似的说她定是用了什么法术，让自己来个一百八十度大转变。对于此说法，她只是淡淡一笑，摸摸口袋里的书签。它，早已成为她的幸运草，永不离身，深怕会回到从前的日子，只因这美好的一切，都是拜它所赐。然而，不希望发生的始终发生了。

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她那宝贵的书签在一夜间消失了，任由她找遍全屋上下，仍不见其物。失去了幸运草，她彻底崩溃，脸上再无往日开朗的笑容，围绕着她的空气煞是凝重。朋友都被这突如其来的变化给吓着了，不敢向她寻问，把重任交给她男友。在男孩苦苦哀求下，女孩一一道说如何得到四叶草及它所带来的好运。男孩不语。女孩更是失落，转身离去。这时，男孩开口了：“将我带到你身边的并非幸运草，而是你。吸引着我目光的并非幸运草，而是你。你的笑容，你的性格，你的一切一切，都是我站在这里的原因。你就是你，并不是一片叶子所能取代的。”如此真心告白让女孩不知如何反应，在男孩怀里默默哭泣。原来，只要敞开心房，就不会是半个透明人。原来，眼泪也可以是甜蜜的。

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她，不再眷恋于那神秘的四叶草，因为她打从心里明白它已离去，去寻找比她更需要它的人，就好比从前的她。正如众人所说的，四叶草确实带来好运，因为它改变了她，让她能创造出自己的信念、希望、爱情及幸运。想到这儿，女孩再次合上双眼，感谢四叶草为她带来的一切。

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“人们总爱断定较特出的造物会带来好、坏运气，而我族徽章则冠上‘幸运草’之名。其执、慈、柔、勤之含义也被更改成信念、希望、爱情及幸运。何谓信念、希望、爱情和幸运？乃信念带来希望，牵入爱情，合成幸运也。与其说是吉祥物，倒不如称之为心灵寄托。”

Confusion

When one spend most of the time with this particular person, it might automatically become one's habit. And the moment this person is not by one's side, eventually one will feel rather awkward. Thus, thinking of that particular person on all times. This often causes some sort a confusion, and so one will be wondering about one's feelings. Not many know how to differentiate from habit to love. As they most likely think that they are in love or have some special feelings on one. However, if one able to analyse all the unusualness, things will be much easier.

Unique

Each and everyone of us has our own ways in doing things, making friends, solving problems and so on. With our very own perspectives, as usual. People might get offended or dislike the way we do, but please note that, this is our way. It is not necessary to be the same as the others. This, is why we human beings are unique. For our species do things differently, with different methods, different solutions. A way to differentiate one from another. You may attract to this particular person of his ways of handling things, or you may not. Thus, dividing us into groups.

Optimum

Scientists say, a group of three can solve problems faster than a group of ten. As we all know, everything on earth has its very own optimum conditions in order to achieve a certain goal. Chemical reaction, human growth, even outings. Yes, outings. People might prefer to hang out in a big group, real big. Let's say about ten, minimum. Out of these ten, they may break up into smaller groups, each doing their own things. Not to mention some might be left out too. Going out with less than four may be good, or in pair. We can just wandering around, grab some popcorn to the movie, or even, shop for a teddy's outfit. Of course, it's all depends on that particular person, to hang out in big group, or a smaller one. The optimum number of people you like.

Thoughts

Indeed, we gain experiences after going through certain incidents. However, it doesn't apply to all thoughts we have in mind. In stages of life, we might just came across such perspectives without knowing how and why. One very good example, how we started falling in love. Same goes to thinking, daydreaming. A research shows, us human have approximately 60,000 different thoughts per day. And where do those come from?? No where. Our thoughts influence our feelings indirectly, and thus, forming our very own perspectives. A sudden change in thoughts too often occurs. It might be within days, months, or even years. We usually known it as, growing up.

A Friend

You don't really need a best friend who would spend time with you 24/7, nor do you need a friend who cries when you cry. A friend who notices the change of your tone, a friend who asks how you feeling when you change your display picture is more than what you need. Even a person whom you never met in real life, but glad to see you laugh in msn, is what we called, friend. A friend who would remain quiet when you are crying, a friend who would reply you instantly when you say the magic words, "I need someone to talk to." A friend who has all ears just for you, a friend who doesn't need to be your friend, to do what friends do. A person who claims to be your best friend, though you both only chat once in a while, talking about girls. Yes, girls. A person who doesn't need to message you 24/7, but shows up unexpectedly, giving you a smack right on your back, is what we need in life. Friend. You may once think you have only one friend like this, but think again. Times flow and things change. They will show up in any phases of your life, and one by one, they will leave, without a trace. A few best friends aren't enough, but with a bunch of friends like this, life is complete.

Recovery

The moment you heard the bad news, you will stunned. Nothing else but shocked and down. You may go hyper, you may go blue. Most of all, you may not be you. Here goes the first day. Gloomy, a coat on your heart. Putting everything to one side, to fix your broken heart. There comes the second day. Being yourself, lifted up with a smile. But somewhere in your heart, tearing apart. An opportunity indeed, to produce a piece of writing. Where you put in the feelings, touches one's heart. On the third day, everything is fine and clear. For you no longer tearing, but able to cheer. However, things are still popping, somewhere in your head. Taking you, to where the memories are stored. Four, is the number of death. Sorrow has died away. The lake in your heart is now cool and calm. Not heartache, nor depression. Winter is gone, for now. Awaiting for the spring to come, somehow, some day.

短篇：恋之痛

利刃划破肌肤的瞬间并非疼痛，只感到外层慢慢裂开。当血液迅速的往外冲，从那伤口渐渐流失，痛楚方涌上心头，泪眼早已产出部份液体，悠悠的顺脸颊而下。

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这痛，与我即将面临的痛楚尚有共同之处。曾是我的他，在那短暂的午后将先前寄托于他的心完璧归赵，并领回属于他的一颗心。世上最真诚 ，最残酷的一刻乃是他坦言相对，诉说感情已不再。我俩的旅程也就此画上句点。

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忆起他那么一句，“我不再爱你了”，是如此痛心，如此难受，直至牵出热泪。人们说，两岸情常因双方无法时时刻刻慰问彼此而难以持续，可这并非绝对。能维持与否皆拟定与两人的定力及耐性。只可惜，此恋情终究败在其中。

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放手，是爱情卷中最大学问之一。然而，唯独数人得晓它既能阻挡伤痛蔓延，亦会冷不防的留下伤疤。在我忍心放手的刹那间，心，同时也被抽了一刀，却不知情的继续跳动，直到大量红血球脱“心”而出，才知道自己身负重伤，也得知失恋为何物。

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曾经数次，不小心碰击伤口，导致裂痕再现。过去的回忆如流水般顺势而下，心不禁抽痛。“分手”两字，切断了我俩的情缘，同时间将我的心剖半，遗留在他身上。后得慢慢寻找，拼回原样。虽说再见仍是朋友，可不知重逢之时是否依然轻松自在。一切，取决于时间的流失。

A Cut

A deep cut doesn't bring you instant pain, but slowly. When the blood flowing out from the wound, bit by bit, the pain reaches your heart. It isn't the cut that hurts, but the loss of the blood. However, we have to bear with it. What is done, is done. Same concept applies to relationships. When your loved one says his heart no longer be with you, accpet it. Don't blame nor hold a grudge against him, but thank him. For he's being honest, and not wasting your time.

Long Lost Single

"We need to talk. " Four very sensitive words in relationships. Very common, people will throw things away when they broke up, specially those given by their ex. Not to mention deleting the lovey-dovey messages which been staying inside the cell phone throughout the months. The couple might never see each other again, giving themselves some time readapt to their long lost single life. However, there are those who remain as friends, though may not be as close as they used to. Still, it is something that cannot be avoided. The best they can do will only be, wishing each other, to have a better life.

Expectation

People expect others like them, people don't. Same concept as not everyone likes oranges. However, expectation is something unpredictable, during exams or relationships. Incidents like a person whom u take as an enemy is actually a friend, vice versa, those are pretty good examples. Not to mention if that particular person is double-faced. I always predict the result after exams, and very often, it does not turn out as what I've expected. Luck plays quite an important role in expectation though. If you're in luck, things might turn out better than expectation or the other way round.

Impression

The first impression between one another determines how a relationship being started. Certain people cannot help it but to tease their friends, specially those who have serious look or pretty shy, in order to make them talk. However, when the time goes on, things may change, so is the impression. There are several factors of such changes, influences from closer friends are included. Not too mention if a person accidentally shows his true self, being double-faced. Pretty disgusted.

Talk

Talking, is one of the best ways to communicate. From, sharing experiences, secrets, to making promises, loosen the knots in one's heart. We usually keep things to ourselves, instead of sharing it, unless, that particular person has already won your trust or some sort. Even couples might hesitate to tell the other half what's going on in their mind, as it will probably hurt their feelings. However, things might not be as bad as we expected, sometimes. It's pretty awesome the moment we talk things out, was real ease. Give it a try.

Words

We human, in most conversations, often express in words. Perhaps we already got used to it and somehow neglect the importance of words, did not realise what circumstances it might bring. Once a certain word slips out from your mouth, it probably affect your relationship between one another, where no word else can be said to correct the situation. Even a word like 'thanks' may hurt a person's feelings.

Assumption

At a friend's teahouse, they have one monkey in one cage and another two in the other. Comparing to the couple, the monkey looked somehow lonely to me, sitting at one corner. Is the monkey not sad being a loner, while the other two cuddling together? Wonder what it would say if we can ever communicate. I told my friend what I was thinking. Guess what he said? "They are sleeping you doink!" All this while I was only making my own assumption, instead of knowing how it really felt. Isn't it the same when it comes to the others? Not to say all, but mostly. Let's say we are out with a group. When one is not as cheerful as we expect him to be, we usually start asking how he is and so on. No one knows how one is feeling, not to mention sometimes that particular person too does not know what is in his mind. Anyway, we assume because we care. Somehow, someway. *wink*

Appreciation

I accompanied a friend to find something suitable for his ex. We walked from one shop to another, spent at least 10 minutes each. To be honest, that was the first time ever I've seen a guy cracking his head over what he should get for a girl. With my own eyes that is, as I don't usually get the chance to witness such incidents. "It's very hard to get something for a girl, specially your girlfriend. If you want to give her a surprise, worse. You have to make sure she doesn't know you're buying her anything nor does she knows you are out at the mall. Not to mention you will have a hard time deciding what to buy," my friend said. I somehow felt sorry for the boys. Well, not that kind of sorry, but something, indescribable. More like appreciation, perhaps? We usually take things for granted when receiving a present or something similar. Hardly, probably the right word, we realise the heart they have put in, together with the gift. Does not matter a necklace, a key chain or just simply, a card. Thank you boys, and girls. *wink*

My Condolences

My dear project got 'stolen' by some bird. Both cockroach and dragonfly. Sad. I got along real well with the cockroach though. Ever since the day we met, I will take him to sun bathing every now and then. Of course, all he had to do was remain still inside the small container i put him in. I bumped into Mr.Cockroach in my bathroom, when I was about to shower. He had a shock of his life when I first greet him with a container, but he got used to it pretty fast, as we were able to start his 'sunbathing' the next day.

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Talking about the Mr.Dragonfly, I met him at Kota Kemuning last Sunday, during a kenduri. Pity him though, because he was relaxing on the wall when my friend got him using a tissue. That day, I took him along with me everywhere. Thank God he didn't suffocate in there. Anyway, I moved him into a new house right after I got home. Could only take him to sunbathing two days after and he left me lots and lots poo poo. He was real cute and adorable, remembering the time he hung onto me when I was holding him.

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Now, they both disappear from the world and the remaining is somewhere in this town, perhaps inside the bird. My dear friends, here I send you my condolences and you will live within my memories, forever. Now, I shall get going and find more friends from your circles, as I need at least twenty-five different species of your kind for my group. Wish me luck.

Short Story: Cursing I Love You

The girls ran as fast as they could, away from the man. There was a certain distance between them, yet they felt so close, for they could still hear the heavy breathing of his. As they got closer to Room 6197, their desire to survive grew stonger. They rushed themselves into the door, feeling relieved, thinking they finally got rid of that mad man.

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They were wrong. A hand reached out from the other end of the door, attacking aggressively, stopring them from closing it. Together, the girls tried to block him from entering, but failed. There stood the man, breathing hard, half of the eyeballs sticking out from its socket, covered in red. Looking at the seven angels, he took a few steps closer. The word "terrified" written on their beautiful faces. He reached out his hands towards the girls. One stood up, staring into his eyes, she said, "it's about time."

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Confidence overtook her fear. A smile lifted on her face. The rest too stood up and gathered by her side. In a blink of an eye, the man's lips were sewn up, turned into a doll before he could react. The girl picked him up, looking as beautiful as ever.

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Months ago, she bumped into him during an outing. He tried talking to her and there, he started to befriend with her. The truth was, he had heard about her and friends, was only looking for a chance to get closer to them, so he could take them down as ATM machines. However, he never knew the girls were no ordinary girls. They could see through people's mind and too possessed some dark magic. While the man plotting his plan winning the girls' heart, they already started their way to bewitch him. She, as the eldest among all, took part in the role play.

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"Each time I said 'I love you', the spell we have cast on you grew stronger. It's only the matter of time before the spell is complete," she said to the doll. The man was stunned. He shouted and cursed, but the voice could never reached, not to mention he couldn't move at all.

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"You messed with the wrong people. Goodbye," she continued, knowing he would have gone nuts by now. Before she and the gang walked out from the room, she threw the doll into the dustbin and started a fire in it. The man screamed in anger but could never be heard.

Friendship

Sometimes I wonder, what would happen if I decided to jump for PTS back then? Not meeting the friends I've met over the past few years? Probably a loss. But I am proud to say, I have friends who are willing to stay by me whenever something occurs. Each and everyone of them is special and giving me sweet memories in their own ways. They willing to accompany me to saturday's class in Petaling Street. We share the same jokes and together, lifting up the smiles on our faces. Spam at my blog whenever they feel like it, being sarcastic in a funny way. Sometimes a good listener too. Let it be carved deep inside my heart, that they were once a good friend of mine, doesn't matter what might happen in the future. Thank you all my dear friends. *Hug*

Barrier

Generation gap always exist among people, forming a certain barrier between one another. In order to communicate, the elders might often try to come up with some sort of conversation. "Try to be their friend," is what people will usually tell you. However, able to communicate is one thing, being thoughtful, well aware of each other's feelings is another. For example, one was 'playing' with another person but got offended. Bending the fingers, making that person to apologize. Without realising the strength one put on, that person cried out in pain. Not knowing what to do, one started panicing, which obviously won't help much. Ended up raising one's voice, telling everybody off. Different perspectives of one another often sets up a higher barrier in between. The latter person of previous example given had no idea what came out from the mouth actually offended one's feelings. Anyhow, one's attitude of solving problem too causes the formation of the gap, which commonly found in the society.

Believe

I received a message, sharing ten sentences which touched my heart. One caught my attention, saying, "there's a lie hiding inside each believe." It doesn't matter how much you believe one person's words, sometimes you just can't help it but wonder, for you and him are two different individuals. However, we do not pronounce 'believe' as 'be-lie-ve' but 'be-lieve", telling us not to put too much attention on the lie within. Either among us friends or lovers, we believe each other in a way, that will eventually forget the doubts we have in one another. *Cheers*

Expression

One said, expressing oneself isn't counted as complaining. Personally, being expressive can be counted as complaining, praising, judging and so on. For example, "I will be having a lonely christmas eve this year," or "I like your hair." These are all expressions, also, they are too complain and compliment. Another friend said, being expressive is important. As you open up to the others and they do the same thing too. This will eventually tighten up the bond in between. Not to mention it is too depending on how much you express yourself. I was thinking, what if that particular person just doesn't like it? Well, perhaps it takes time a little.

Effective Collision

A friend of mine said, "You always spend time with your juniors, no wonder they like you." Come to think of it, without the effective collision, even the rate of a reaction is slow. I don't see why our relationships within the circles should be exceptionals. Usually, we tend to judge a person by the physical appearance, not to say good-looking or not, but the impression. However, once we got to know that particular person, we might be like, "Hey, he isn't that bad after all," or the other way round. With the right communication that is, two person get to know each other, the bond in between getting stronger and "poof", we have the product of a reaction, friendship. Something like using catalyst in a reaction and increases the rate. If you try befriending with someone, make sure you have the right "catalyst", along with the suitable "temperature" and "pressure". Otherwise, it might not turn out like what you expected. *wink*

Chemical Bonding

People around us changing from time to time, whether you like it or not. They came, they stayed, they left. Might be temporarily, might be permanently. They may have their own reason, or they may not. This often occurs, I believe, within a relationship, no matter friends or lovers. They probably were once very closed friends, brother and sister. Even so, the chemical bonding in between may changed. Somehow, someday. A note for those who choose keeping a distance with someone elses. This is a path where there is no return. Once we decided to break the bond among the cirlces by force, the memories together will become history, no turning back, no regret. We might be able to face them after the incident, we might not. Anyhow, cherish the people who are still around and the moment you have together. *Cheers*