Puppets

Personally choose to share experiences and stories instead of burdens, which then complained by a friend, that she feels outdated. Times where anger overwhelms the mind, thus having tons of words to be said, which then being held back so that the probability of offending a person is lower, as the chaos we have already caused is more than enough. It is an attitude which may not be so applicable in the eyes of many, at least to some particular groups, where they think a person should let the words out despite the fact that he is pissed; regardless the content and that understanding will be built thereafter. Sometimes wonder, are we the ones who responsible on what we are to do and to speak? Or it is our emotions instead? Either one, the effect is significant enough to bring us to the top or even, breaking the trust between two. Very often, we use the term ‘puppet’ whenever one is controlled by the other; in this case, are we one of those puppets to our emotions? Or perhaps to our actions and words spoken? Or even to ourselves? Anyhow, the responsibility is there, the choice is there and when we decided on one, we are automatically responsible on what we are to take and to face; as we are the puppets to our decisions, the words to be said and the actions to be taken, we are the puppets to ourselves.

Theme of Life

Most functions have their own themes, with different or perhaps the same originalities, ideas and purposes. Certainly, same goes to our lives. Like many others, theme is flexible enough to be changed from time to time, be it on purpose or the other way round. From a ball to cell phone monitor screen, theme is determined by the people in charged; discuss together as one maybe, a person has all say maybe. Anyhow, the theme tells us the main idea of one particular function; generally or specifically. What about us? Do we have the theme of our lives? Do we know the theme of our lives, of our roles? There are times where we are the ones who decide our own theme of life, with the influences from incidents taken place, we ourselves and the people around us, be they the one we love or the passersby. When we are wondering who we were, who we are and who we will be, we are figuring the path to our definition of truth; when we are trying hard to find out the purpose of our lives, the theme to our journey down the road, the role we are playing in all intersection of memories, we are leaving ourselves in the heads of others, of what we have said, what we have done and what we have heard.

Personalization

Every now and then, different ideas and desires are presented; from what we want to how we want it to be. Creation always first started off with a question or perhaps a request and need, where the following generations will then proceed with the alternation; to improve, to customize and to personalize further. With us the individuals having different perspectives and ideas of beauty, the world is colourful, whereby it also means more arguments, requests and desires, as there is no item or even a lively being can satisfy the requirements and needs of all; not even the personalized properties. An object is customized according to the preference of customers, but how customize it can be? During the working days to produce labels, one of the most frequent questions being asked was, “Can I have only this picture and not the rest?” and the answer is no. Not truly customize after all, is it? There are the restriction in personalizing our properties and lifestyle; however, when we are given the full authority to proceed with the so called personalization, we would somehow feel reluctant to do so, for it is more complicated than we think it is and that our attitude towards troublesome is personalized or perhaps, globalised.

Death

Deaths are everywhere, taking place whenever we are not aware of. When it comes to a point in life, we may be wondering why the number of such depressing incidents is greatly increased around us, questioning the one who we believe is in charged of the matter why us and the people we care; but never did we know, we are not the only ones who are trying to overcome such painful experiences, for there are many more similar events happening around the world, to the people we may or may not know of. When we are way younger, we have no idea what death means and very often we wonder why people cry, those are the time where we are not familiar with the word sorrow; coming to our current age, we start receiving news revolving around the people we care for, where we can do nothing else other than being by their sides, saying words which can hardly calm their hearts and souls, for we know only the time can ease their painful memories. As we move down the journey of life, we face more challenges, newborns and deaths, where each leaves its footsteps in our very souls, telling us about the world we are living in and that we have lived.

Numbering

Our days are numbered in a way, with or without us knowing exactly how many. Personally, an incident takes place as it is destined to be, where nothing can be done to prevent it from happening, where no changes will be made thereafter; be it the unwanted event or desired. Numbering is used to represent numbers, for reference purposes and many more, which we have been applying in daily life. We are told to live our lives to the fullest; like there is no tomorrow and so we shall have no regrets when a sudden death strikes us. Express our feelings to the people we love, apologize before it is too late and fulfill our dreams while we can. In many cases, most choose not to say a word regarding unwanted incidents, where there is this conception that everything will soon be over if we just leave it aside, where numbering is not used on counting down to sorrows but happiness. Funny thing it is, that we decided not to number our lives though we know it is already numbered from the very beginning; that we are supposed to be reminded every now and then regarding our limited days on Earth when we somehow refuse to remember. Such irony, isn’t it?

Self-Esteem

Very often, we hear people saying they have no confidence in themselves due to low self-esteem and always, they feel useless for not able to aid the people they love when help is needed most. Seriously, how often do we come up with solutions regarding the problems of others’? As we all know, the only way to help people is them helping us to help them in return. Indeed, motivation and support are needed for one to stay strong and overcome the obstacles; however, if that particular person not willing to open up, to face the truth and to pull himself out from the mess, all the helping hands mean nothing, nothing at all. When we feel awful for only able to be by their sides during the worst and nothing else we can do in order to help them, think again, that’s the best we can do and certainly the best comfort which can be brought into a person’s life. Why feel bad when we have already tried and gave our best? Why feel useless when we help the people around just by staying with them? An aid comes in any form, be it spiritually, physically and materialistically. So why complain? Never ever use the name of low self-esteem when we are the ones who not satisfied with the help given because it is unfair; to the phrase, to the people we love and to us.

Hurt & Being Hurt

Disappointment, regret and guilty; whenever we hurt someone else, whenever we see the people we love being hurt, especially when we are the one who hurt the others. Also, when we fail ourselves and the people we care for, when we do not achieve their expectation, when we are not as good as we think we are. Always, we tend to hurt the feelings of others, with or without us realizing it and always, we tend to get hurt over the most insignificant word one has said. We go overboard, we overreact and we not willing to let go just like that. Is it our attitude by nature of not forgiving the others easily and the actions taken by us or the rest of the world? That the past is still haunting us and the memories, hence causing us not able to open up, even to the dearest? When we know damage has been done, we not necessary take actions in order to fix things up, for we may not know how and what to do, not forgetting that we like to put things aside, waiting for the day where it automatically goes back to the good old days; even if we do know what can be done, we might not have the courage to fulfill our duty, in the sense of putting the pieces back together. Perhaps this is just the way it is, where we need a gentle reminder on what we are dealing and how we are suppose to handle it, where we sometimes forget our capability and strength, where we tend to keep it in mind that we have failed the others and us; or maybe, we need more than just a reminder about the fact that we have hurt the people we love and sometimes, we ourselves.