New Year Eve

Last day of the year, people gather around at one place, celebrating the last few hours to a whole new year. Food, drinks and all sorts of entertainments are probably the only activities on that day. When the clock strikes 12, people cheer and hug. With tins in the hand, they spray, whoever shows up, greeting each other. Another kind of destiny, that brings us all together, though we may not know each other.

Bravery

As time flies, we discover our weaknesses. Realising it bit by bit, day by day. Some choose to hide it with their very best, some don't. Certain people deny the facts when the weaknesses have been pointed out and cover it with everything they have. It's rather fake, really. Remembering a friend shared his past, telling how hot-tempered he was but it's all over now. As if it is no longer something to be ashamed of, but to be proud of. This is what we called, bravery.

Power Hungry vs Capability

People known one who would die for posts as power hungry. Personally, it isn't something that bad, if and only if, that particular person is capable enough to handle it. There are people who took up several tasks, not knowing the responsibilities that have to be carried out. At the end of the day, not able to complete the duty. So, being power hungry is one thing, capability is another. To be acknowledged, power hungry isn't the only way, but showing your capability too.

Pride

Someone told me, one who has lower education might be unreasonable at times, specially the elders. As one doesn't feel comfortable when all sorts scientific reasons given by the younger yet higher educated generations. Therefore, one starts scolding and yelling, wanting to protect one's pride. However, education isn't the only factor which causes such problem, one's past too may be playing part of the roles. Let's say one person had been discriminated by the people around for years, not being respected as who he is. When the time has come, he will fight back and thus, gaining respects. From that onwards, he draws a line and nobody can cross over. For he refuses going back to the old days, where he had his worst nightmares. Believe it or not, everyone has its own pride. It might be hidden deep down, it might be not. Whichever it is, pride lives within us, waiting to be discovered.

Distraction

During a discussion, we often get carried away from the original topic. Either way beyond the topic itself, or nothing relevant at all. Plenty of distractions lay around and without knowing, we might eventually end up else where. In life, we tend to get distracted from what we truly want. Blindfolded by different issues, it is pretty hard for a person to snap out of it. Focussing is one of the easiest theory in life, but also, one of the hardest practical of all.

Starter

Whatever we do, one will have to get things started. Remembering a person said, "This will be a great changes to all and I don't suppose we should do it now." After all these years, human beings made plenty of changes to the world. When the time is right, certain changes shall be made and it will have to begin with one person. Anyway, anyhow. Being reluctant doesn't help much. Let's say in a relationship, one wants to know what is in the mind of that particular person but dare not ask. Eventually, one will get nothing but tons of worries. So, instead of worrying what that person is thinking, might as well as start a conversation and ask.

Poem: Nostalgia

Walking pass the shops, varieties of food presenting in sight.

Jellies, nuggets and many more, bringing him back to the past.

Days where he was once in love with all sorts of food.

Only sweet but no other tastes, able to cheer him with.

Years have gone, and the little boy too.

Becoming fine young man he has, with whole new perspectives and choices.

Not to mention he is now fond of other tastes too.

Sour and bitter, but no longer sweet for all.

Dealing with problems in life, he hides his past behind.

Forgetting what his world was, when he was once a child.

With the food from his time, his memories are back.

Flashing through his brain, he remembers them.

Friends in the park, together, they ran.

Searched all places in town, they ruled the area.

Fighting as usual, with papers and gangs.

And lastly, the parting gifts given by the pals.

Separated by miles of road, their friendship has come to an end.

Yet, times where they were summoned to the office is back on track.

As they are once connected again, talking about the past back then.

The bittersweet memories they had.

Surprises

An unexpected call lifted up the day on Christmas Eve. Surprise, surprise. Something simple, yet able to cheer one up. Spending the night under full moon light, with several friends as company. Everything was fine. However, with the surprises coming in, everything turned out to be great! It helps decorating one's life, embeds into one's heart. Something similar to happening events and people. It might be something simple, but you will never know how much it means to someone else. Therefore, never be stingy when it comes to surprises. Also, we should appreciate the surprises given by the people around, even if we already knew what is coming up next.

Never never

Cleaning up the room, took out several items from the past. Were once holding very dear memories and yet, as the time flies, they turned out to be meaningless. Folios since primary, to the projects given in secondary were stored in a specific area. Funny thing that is, from souvenirs, they transformed into junks. Not the way they appeared to be, but the way we see it. Yesterday they were something precious, today they are hidden somewhere cannot be seen and tomorrow they may once again appear under the sunlight, in the dustbin. People says, never say never. Indeed, we never know what lies ahead on the path. Something similar to the situation above, things change according to our point of view. However, here's something new. We may use the word 'never' when we really, really mean it.

Downgrading

When a person secretly adores someone else, he will be an admirer. If he dares not take actions yet asking dozens and dozens of questions from people around, it will be nothing but annoying. An annoying admirer. Let's say he does not believe the person he is going after already in a relationship, thus starts investigating, he will be downgraded. From an admirer to a stalker. A stalker who most people dislike. If we don't take actions but only use the mouth, nothing will come out of it. However, if we overdo it, we won't get what we want either.

Passersby

Everyday, we have thousands of people passing us. Does not matter in the car, on highways or wherever we go. At times, we take them as passersby, not paying much attention on them. However, these man who appeared in our stages of life might eventually turn out to be a very dear friend in the future. Even if once we were nobody to one another. When the time comes, the bond in between will form and thus, bringing a new friendship to life.

Poem: Voices

Thousands of voices wandering around, looking for the right person.

In the songs, in the lyrics, in the words they lie.

Awaiting the day when they can move someone else's heart.

Thus bringing changes to one's life.

Messages being delivered from one to another.

Till the very end, where it has no ends at all.

Reaching somebody is the only task given to the voices.

And yet how many actually getting them?

Realising how important is the message and being moved?

Let It Go

A friend asked, "How can you be so friend with him though he once fell for you and not me?" This, probably happened to the others too. Such situation often alters depending on few factors. Who, why and how. Who the person you dealing with, why it didn't work out between you both and how he handles it after the decision is made. If the person doesn't get bothered much about it, and holds on to the concept 'we are still friends no matter what happened', then the friendship remains. With no complaints for not accepting him. Even if he holds the slightest grudge against you for it didn't work out the way he wanted it to, then sad to say, he's losing the friendship. There is no such excuse as "I tried to maintain our friendship but you seemed to be avoiding me." How can one be avoiding that particular person if he himself is fine with it and are still friends? How is it possible that you will notice it if you no longer care about how that person feels about you? Whether you both can be together? It is the matter that you can really let it go, or you are still looking for your chances.

Memories

When we move on in life, our memories tend to stop at certain part of the chapters. It might be something sad, happy or even nothing significant. Why, we do not know. Unlike the nonliving items, memories are something that live in us, as they change from time to time. Not to mention they may somehow alter from what really happened. It may be something inclining us to believe or interpreted wrongly.

Division

It does not take a friend to blend into a group within few hours, but a friend's friend too. Several trips showed group dividing is an essential process. Not something on purpose, but it happens automatically. However, these smaller groups out of the bigger one do not have specific members as they change from time to time. Might last for hours or days. It probably takes a small incident to have such division to occur, or even, a several hours away from the original 'group members'. Preference during specific time too may influence the people in group. Kind a funny, but true.

Spoiled

What is the first thing coming across your mind when you see someone behaving like a spoiled kid? Annoying? Immature? What makes a person spoiled? Overpampering and 'excessive' love from the people around. Indeed, sometimes a spoiled child can drive you up the wall. But that's our point of view. What about the child's perspectives? He might be enjoying it. For being surrounded by love is great, does not matter whether it is way too much. There is a certain period of time, we would like to be the one who is being spoiled, instead of the person who pampers. Just that it depends on the occasions, timing, and surroundings. It may be the time when you are with your lover, or hanging out with friends.

Intrusion

Went to Lake View for some bug catching activities. Pretty easy to spot them, that's for sure. Just that, it depends on whether you can catch them. Walking on the green, you can see them hopping from one place to another. Whichever part of the grass you've laid your feet on, insects will be showing up. Grasshoppers, crickets, butterflies and dragonflies. Some flew, some hopped, trying to free themselves from danger, if there is any, whenever there was a slight movement in their neighbourhood. However, things might just not going the way they wanted it to be. My friends and I managed to catch plenty of them. Why did that happen? Because they reacted to our intrusion. Let's say we are the insects, and the intrusion is problems in life. Sometimes we are just like them, choose to avoid the trouble, ignore it, running away from it. In the end? Might as well as ended up like the bugs, being captured. If we didn't avoid and still get caught, never give up. Fight back and who knows? Maybe we will be able to escape. Just like one of my captives this morning, it flew when it had it's chance. Leaving the empty container behind.

A Goal

"Which type of guy would be your ideal partner?" a friend asked. "Ever since primary, I've already set a goal, that my girlfriend must be active in sports and smart." another friend said. Sometimes I wonder, is their type of partner somebody who they admire? Or someone they truly in love with? People may say, setting yourself a goal is something to keep you moving on in life, as you know where to head to and what to do. But relationship? Probably due to personal preference. Some want to handle it rationally, some go according to their feelings and some, go with the flow. Personally, placing an aim in such indescribable 'incident' may causes us missing the right one, or even, misinterpret our own feelings.

As a whole

A research at Cambridge University shows we human read the words as a whole instead of letter by letter. As long as the first and second letter are in the right place, we will still able to recognize the word, does not matter in what order the letters are. When it comes to words, yes we may recognize it as a whole, but socialising? Maybe or maybe not. We usually focus on one point when it comes to dealing with people, the outer layer instead of the inner part. Sometimes we even forget the strong point of one, while busy worrying about the weaknesses. A friend told me how they grade each other among friends, from height to intelligence, to physical appearance and personalities. Not just by specific part of theirs, but also, as a whole.

Choices

"Why are there so many options?" a man said. "Don't you have more choices?" a lady asked. Some likes to be surrounded by different alternatives, and some don't. The difference in between is, one knows what oneself want and the other doesn't. Not many know what they truly wanted and this, often causes troubles. Due to this reason, some might even hold on to all sorts of options they have in hand and slowly, they pick out the best. Putting in the consideration, whether it may turn out good and everlasting. Yes, they may do so, but what about the rest? It ain't just wasting their time but also the others. Make up the mind and get over with it. Worthy or not, it is meant to be, the destiny.

Happening

Away from the house for hours might be something good. Tiring maybe, but fun. Extra class in school, bit boring. However, it depends on how you look at it. Make it fun as possible. Happening, as what they said. A badminton game, then down to SS2 for lunner (lunch and dinner). Shop at the night market, with Digi promoters everywhere and the water drizzling from the sky. Vouchers and balloons. Several types of food in hand and enjoy it on the way back home. Fuji apple, shaomai, peanuts and soya milk. Wasn't in the schedule, but it ended up to be. Happening and something different. Decorating our life, make it more colourful and memorable. Even a friend of mine said, "Mixing with happening people is fun." So why not we do something which is not part of the original plan? Once in a while.

Hide and Seek

Once in a while, we tend to seek our past in a person. "She shares the same hobbies with her, they are so alike, from physical appearance to favourite activities." Such phrases often heard from the people around. Putting the hope in a different individual, hoping to find something familiar, relating to the past. It's sort a unfair to that person, for he is not being treated as who he is, but someone he is not. When the time has come, we are destined to put our past aside, not holding onto it. Even though we meet someone who shares something in common with that particular person, it is a test given by our fate, whether we can let it go. Learn to appreciate the beauty hidden in different individuals, not just the similarities, but also the differences, the uniqueness.

Discovering, regaining

"She changed him," a friend said. Come to think of it, do we really change a person? Or we discover what has been hiding beneath? Another friend said, "It's not that I'm being serious all the time, but I just didn't show another me." Personally, one hides another part of oneself deep down, or does not even realise the other part is living in within. Time too might put up several layers on one, and so the others miss the real oneself. However, few simple ways may bring us to another part of a person's heart. Simply go to the park and you can see them enjoying themselves, trying out all sorts of facilities provided, even a 20 years old will be queuing up for the swing. A nature hidden deep down inside their heart, regaining their youth, back to the time when they were once 9 years old. Those who chose to put their true self aside, a key is all it takes to open their heart. It may be a friend, place, food and sorts. Discovering, regaining.

Poem: Old Friend

There I saw your familiar face, in the squarely base.

With the name I can't recall, you wrote me a message.

"Are you Ping Ying?", it said.

Shocking, was the only word I had.

And there you started, telling all the stories.

Bit by bit, you filled up my memories.

Back to the old days we had been.

Meeting old friend is really great.

Yet the time died away, bringing the day to an end.

Happy, but sad.

For I woke up in my bed, not knowing where I am.

Thinking hard, I've tried, but nothing came to my mind.

Except the dream during that time.

Even the name you have told, became nothing.

Not a single bit.

Insecurity

We've been told to work maintaining a relationship. Why work? Probably due to the insecurity in us, which we all have. Right on this moment, we might be smiling, thinking of what that person has said to us. Happy and sweet. However, we may not be feeling the same way on the next. It takes only seconds to cheer, also, seconds to sadness, doubtfulness. Does not matter the two are fall apart, or seeing each other from time to time. Sometimes we know what kills a relationship, still, we have not overcome the matter, as it is pretty hard to do so.

Purposes

Whatever we do, wherever we go, there's a purpose. Something we choose, something we decide. From meeting someone new, to not contacting a friend. Purposes lie within. People says, purpose of life is life of purpose. Ain't just saying how important the purposes are, but also shows how frequent they occur. However, they can be something good, or bad. It depends on the person who make the choice, to be a friend, or foe.

Nonbeliever

One says, "I am no longer believe in love. People don't love me and yet, I will still make them happy." Rather pessimistic and sarcastic. A person who does not believe in love, is something similar to giving up the happiness, friendship and family. Nothing but a living zombie, with no love but sadness, hatred and anger. A person who can make the rest happy, is by love. A pessimist who always think the love is absent from his life, is more likely to give nothing. For he does not realise the love surrounding him, with care.

Temporary

Friends around us changing from time to time, does not matter how close we are. Sometimes, we take their absence in life as permanent effect, not knowing it might be temporary. And very often, this sillyness will be broken by one message from long lost friend. An ordinary message saying, "I'm glad that you can make it. We've been waiting for you." is more than what it takes, to show us the bond in between is not dead. Even if we are not as close as we used to be, the memories we had together will hold us as close as possible. When it starts fading away, we would somehow realise, tiny pieces of the memory itself remain.

Exceptional

Special. Unique. What people commonly ask for when it comes to preference. Whether to buy a gift or choosing a partner. Some, define them according to the price tag and some, depends on the efforts they have put in. And of course, including the designs. One may think, the higher price it costs, the better quality. On the other hand, some work out every single muscles to produce the best. Take gardening as an example, one puts in efforts and so the plants bloom. Whichever ways, the final goal would always be, the exceptional. To be remembered, to be unique, to be special.

Priceless? Not

"You have no idea how much I've spent on you. And just why can't you see how much I care about you?" Sounds familiar, don't you think? In our life, we may encounter such situation. People come to us, listing the items they've got us, including the price. We tend to forget that getting someone a gift, is what we want to do and ain't just to win a person's heart. One who received it, would appreciate it, as it is priceless. However, by stating the price of all items you've got for that particular person, is something we may call, insincerity. Not to mention the gifts are no longer priceless. The idea of amount of money that has been spent on one determines how much you care is rather, awkward. Even if you say that particular person of yours is materialistic, it won't work.

Moments in Life

Every moment in life plays an important role, as they may determine your mood, impression of the others and many more. Even including when you want to take pictures, as you may take a several and choose the best among all. Camera captures the moment of your face, which reflects your life in a way. Take it once, following by the next, the facial expressions look somehow different. The smile, the eyes and the feelings reflected. Right at this moment, you may be relieved but started worrying on the next. You may not go back to the moment which had passed, however, something similar might come to you. Somehow, some day.