Cracks & Foreign Particles

How often do we go through dilemma on which to believe and which not to? When it revolves around one person who has once betrayed our trust and another who seems to be the messenger especially. A crack which forms in between the bond affects the strength of bonding, which eventually causes disbelief and doubts, hence the little annoyance and for worse, the end of one relationship. How often do we have the urge to ask the party involved yet holding ourselves back as it may causes embarrassment and endless questions which we might find it hard to answer? The deformation of the connection and relationship in between may be irreversible at times, until the day when we finally able to overcome the fear and step forward in order to seek for the answers, so that one of our many mysteries can be solved and so we know what to do next. It is somehow ironic, as we’ve chosen not to believe what a person has told, as the trust is no longer there, yet when it comes to a point in life, we on the other hand wish for the reverse in time, back to the moments where we have someone to rely on, someone for us to share our little stories with, for we are in doubts whether to count on the third party so much that it may even prevent us from seeing the real truth using our rationality and senses. When there is a crack, there will be a chance for the little foreign particles to get in, thus the bigger crack would be formed in between, and it is our decision whether to remove them to prevent further damage on one particular relationship, which may sometimes resulting damages on the other, between us and the third parties instead. We want to know the truth, but it comes in different versions as we have our very own definition and point of view regarding one particular matter, as we are living in our own world. Perhaps it is a test given, whether we are to rely on the trust which has been formed from the many hours being spent together or the temporary trust resulting from the momentary disbelief due to the broken promises. Perhaps it is just us, making choices over and over again, till the day we are lost, and found, someday.

Imaginary Friend

For children at young age, there may be the slight possibility that they will have their very own imaginary friend, well, depends on the environment they’re in and personalities of course. Anyhow, this particular friend who exists in their heads may somehow be the reflection of their own, showing the sign of loneliness and desperate. Nevertheless, having imaginary friend is not children’s right to have, but also the adults; as we know, there are indeed people who talk to themselves, sometimes. To convey a message perhaps, there are those who would start mumbling on the spot as though they’re in a conversation with their subconscious, be it without knowing or simply an expression for the third party to take note of. To convince themselves perhaps, people ask questions over and over again, with their very own shadows, hoping to obtain the answers, when the rest of the world would simply be staring at them, wondering what’s going on in their heads. It is all in the mind perhaps, that we choose to ignore an issue by creating a similar situation where everything no longer fits in, or that we face the problems by telling ourselves there’s a need to express them and hence, the little conversation with another ‘us’ within us in front of the others and, us. Indeed we are not supposed to discriminate those who have imaginary friends or perhaps, another version of them in the subconscious, however, sometimes it’s plain irritating and even freaky when it is on purpose for the sake of attention and everything else that we can think of. As requested, my pappa's imaginary friend is an invisible pink unicorn locked in a taped brown box. XD

Victimization

We sometimes see ourselves as victims in certain occasions, to show that we’re not the ones at fault, hoping to hear sentences like, “oh my, seriously?” with the little things-happen-smile on the face, we would say, “It’s nothing really, I’m all over it.” In class, we may have people who often find teachers being prejudiced, hence the bad academic performances and there are those at work who see the boss simply not open-minded enough to accept what they have in mind for the company’s brighter future. Even in a relationship itself, who’s the one being dumped seems to be a very big issue, where the person who has made the decision of such is somehow equal to superior. Certainly, there will also be the parties who would declare themselves as victims, thanks to the ‘intrusion’ of another person who coexists or whatsoever reasons there may be. Reasons for doing so; people would know how much we’ve been through, or that we needed someone to provide psychological support and probably, simply for the sake of getting sympathy. Very often, we see comments such as “What happen?” “Are you alright?” whenever a person’s status has been changed from ‘in a relationship’ to ‘single’, showing their concern perhaps, that particular person would be treated in a way as though he is the person being dumped who needs consolation right away. Nevertheless, I don’t suppose anyone would go, “Oh, it’s nothing, I dumped her anyway,” now would it? Therefore, we see people who stop all questions from coming in further by saying, “things happen, let’s just move on,” or sometimes, not even notify the circles around until weeks or months later when the cat is finally out of the bag. Come to think of it, perhaps the way the circles react to such issues plays a significant role in the victimization we have in the current days. Well, things do happen and we do victimize ourselvse, from time to time.

Goals & Promises

Here goes, we make promises every now and then, be it on purpose or without realizing we just did, be it the significant or the opposite. Certainly, there will be those who fulfill every single word they’ve chosen and those who take it less serious, as it may be part of the courtship ‘plans’. Anyhow, promises are easy to make but not necessary able to be carried out, depends on the individuals whether they’re willing to set their hearts for it, not to mention there may be a form of pressure, well, compared to a goal that is. We have people who make promises to themselves, as though they are setting a boundary to what they’ve got to do and what they shouldn’t be, thus complain to the circles around how much hard time they’ve had because of that. Setting a goal on the other hand is more motivating than making a promise, for it gives us directions and not boundaries. Moreover, keeping a promise is different from achieving a goal, where the latter will somehow be a form of achievement to that particular person. It sounds weird if we are to see keeping promises an achievement really. Well, it is up to the individual which would keep them motivated better, but if we find it tiring to keep our words, perhaps it is time for a change, to set ourselves an achievable goal rather than empty promises and likewise.

Mind Shapers

Watched a video during tutorial regarding the persuasions in life, where there are 5 mind shapers which would be the brain frame, context, mind filter, social influence and belief; funny yet inspirational and true. That’s why they make sure the lights are reflected on the precious stones and the number 70% font size is bigger than the remaining 30% which we would be paying for. Since when piercing on the right ear represents homosexual and not the left? Since when it is a must to follow what most people would be doing anyway? Though we’re living in our own world with our very own definition towards life, there will be the time when each individual’s world collides, with the little universal psychological reaction and perhaps similar perspectives regarding certain situations or issues, in a way. For the past one week we’ve had a friend asking us why so serious during meals, unlike his university circle who would figure a way on how to make it fun by playing games; new influences, comparison and hence, the question. There were the hours when one is willing to stay up late in order to finish off the task so that there will be a smile on the face or perhaps, a favor can be returned, more or less. To see how influential and contagious an emotion can be, where the third parties would be aware of and start asking why, where that particular person would shake his head away and not answering them, where the atmosphere would somehow be affected and every one finds it hard to smile and be goofy like how they were moments ago. 5 factors to mind shaping and persuasion; how interesting.

Movie Ticket

Been through certain incidents which left their trademarks deep within for the past 10 days; from defending myself against hundreds stares down at random street to marrying two males at one go with ridiculous decoration on the head, from having sleepover at a friend’s place without pillow talk but only the online novel and restaurant city to psychology lecturer telling us soft toys are allowed during lessons. Memories which some may record them down by keeping them in the heart or writing it somewhere noticeable, or perhaps the opposite, where some may simply keep the objects with the stated date as proof to such wonderful happening, movie tickets for instance. It is amazing to see how people tend to treasure one little piece of paper and have it with them 24/7 as though it is the lucky charm, well, that is until its magic runs out some day, where we would find the so called proof no longer available as the printing has faded, leaving nothing behind but the image we then created during flash back. We refresh our memories every now and then with every day’s incidents taken place, with the new appearances we’ve met and befriended. Feeling alienated we could be, when we see the unknowns commenting on the group of people we’re once closed with and still are, bringing back the times when the bonds are still strong enough to hold on. A different movie ticket takes over the previous one, until the writing fades away, one day.

Tears to Gain & Loss

Though most of the time people would say that we shed tears only when we’re touched or simply because we care, I personally find it not entirely true. At times we cry not because of our love for a person, but for our own. How many have been through the situations where the tears are basically unstoppable when people start shouting and screaming right in our faces regarding some mistakes which are not ours who made in the first place? How many actually feel worthless and unappreciated when the so called lover or friend has betrayed our trust, where the sobbing continues knowing that we deserve better? How many have once lost in the middle of nowhere, loosing the focus on where we are heading and go through mental breakdown as we lose our confidence and self assurance? Have it ever come across our minds that it may not merely be the emotions for others which drive us to such, but the love over our loss? How many have been through the times when tears start flowing down as the sentences spoken keep ringing in our ears, telling us there is actually someone who knows us well exist on this planet? How many actually have the urge to hug the person right in front of us real tight where the little actions he took are so insignificant yet heart-warming? How many have once had the tears of joy as we know we’ve been forgiven when we know it is almost impossible? Have we ever thought it is simply because of us being thrilled, for we’ve gained what we’ve lost or something we’ve never thought we would possess? Perhaps it is a little pessimistic, whatever we wish to call it, but basically, we shed tears for our loss and gain, a sign of love for our very souls in a way instead of for others.

Expecting to Politics

The old man once told, that politic is unavoidable or perhaps, a must within a country, an association or even a group. Though personally have absolute no idea how, it seems to be one of the very few best ways to stabilize the little nations, well, at least that’s what certain people find it to be. There were the questions why it is essential and how it is taken place even within a school which is supposed to be a place where the students enjoy their high school life instead of being involved in the so called politics. It is the expectation, he says; a person who expects himself to gain power, to have the knowledge and to feel how it is like to be ahead of many others. Perhaps even a little child would have the wildest dream to be achieved in such way, should it be less complicated, or maybe not. There are the explanations that they’re simply working towards their aims, be they to learn from the best for the better or simply, to get onto a certain level where they are inapproachable by those who do not come in peace. Perhaps it is the place we stand which would determine the level of politics being involved. Perhaps it is our desires for a better future which decides whose future would be disturbed. Perhaps we are not looking at the facts that we are somehow involved in political issues around us, in a way.

True Smile

We smile, but it doesn’t mean we know how, as it may not be the one from the bottom of our hearts. How many of us would smile all we want, without giving a second thought to how the others might comment about us? How many would actually smile and not care about the fact that it may leave traces on our faces as time slipping through? How many would smile at some strangers passing by just to brighten up their day and not bother by the chances of others taking it as flirtatious? Read a book week ago, saying adults are the happier ones for they know how to solve their problems as time goes by and that the experiences and knowledge always come in handy, but personally find them less cheerful compared to many children who love and know how to smile. Certainly, it doesn’t mean everyone on Earth does not know how, but most of us. How often do we take smiling as a form of manners? How often do we not hide our feelings whenever we wish to smile? How often do we actually, truly smile? The answer lies in our hands, whether we would change for the brighter days or simply wonder why the others are smiling at us when there is the eye contact, like how we always would. There is no definition to a true smile really, because it is produced from the heart and not the mind.