Fire in The Eyes

We have been emotional from time to time, be it anger, sorrow or happiness. With people showing up by our sides, sometimes we share our burdens and sometimes we don’t, but most of the time, we needed someone who is reliable enough to hold our backs and so we know we wouldn’t fall on our butts just like that even when the worst has taken over the world. Funny thing though, some of us would ask silly question like, “Are you angry?” when it is so obvious that the words “I’m pissed” are basically written on the forehead. Once heard several comments made based on a friend who tends to get emotional all the time and that he would drag everyone around him along into such bottomless pit whenever he does, which most of them find it inappropriate as he should shut himself away instead of behaving in such a way that the whole world goes down with him. Nevertheless, do we not realize that these are the consequences when we wanted to console people in the first place? It is similar to the case where one is trapped in the quicksand and a helping hand being offered would be taken in with no further hesitation, hence the potential of that particular person who wishes to help being dragged into the mess, putting his life in the front line, if and only if, the rescue mission is not being carried out in a proper manner. Indeed we would get tired of listening to dozens of stories containing the same old pessimistic ideas of life, but it is our choice to step into people’s life when they started showing the sign of low self-esteem and insecurity. We don’t interrupt when we know others do not wish to see us intruding their world, we don’t speak further when we see people showing no sign of taking our words and we certainly do not involve ourselves in counseling or whatsoever related if we know we cannot take it, sooner or later. Fire in our eyes does not help putting off the fire in the eyes of others, so what’s the point?

Not Anymore

Due to the urge of hanging out with friends instead of staying at home rotting, several suggestions were being raised without considering the further preparation or circumstances, simply for the sake of saying something lame really. Certainly, such act brought in criticism or perhaps sarcasm for we do not think it through before voicing it out. I want to have picnic nearby waterfall, I want to enter the woods to refresh my mind, I want to hike all the way to the top of the mountains and I want to travel around before I get tied down by expectation in studies with all the test papers and quizzes. Unfortunately, people around are busy with their own problems and achievements which soon to be made. Guess that’s one of the many reasons why we find it hard to get ourselves someone who has the same interest with the extra hours to spare like we do. Couldn’t help it but to notice how things have grown apart as the time goes by and as we grow; we no longer start a topic which does not make sense in the first place, we do not put our ideas into actions as long as they are yet to be confirmed as beneficial and we have forgotten the time when our minds used to wander off elsewhere with the creativity and imagination. We are running out of time as claimed, we are competing with each other in order to gain knowledge and we are in the middle of nowhere as we speak with all the rules and boundaries, expectations and desires, competition and rationality. We were once carefree to speak as we wish and to plan our future as we desire, but not anymore.

Road Less Taken in Woods

Went into the woods just yesterday, where dozen of inspirations kick in as we trekked and during the process, I recalled my first camp in Maxwell hill years ago. We were in the jungle, where the leaders each lead their own patrol, yet I went ahead of mine, jumping onto a gigantic stone as we marched forward and almost fell into the trees unknown at the bottom of our feet due to slippery. It feels good when we know we’re able to escape from life threatening situations, really. That was the time when my patrol leader told me the things which come across my mind least; a leader walks ahead of others to ensure they are on the right track at all times and so they wouldn’t get themselves into danger. Perhaps this is the reason why we tend to watch our feet when we’re following someone’s back, especially in the forest. Perhaps it is simply the unconscious mind which takes control of our actions when we’re the first among the group and that we tend to look at the surroundings more often, especially with people behind our backs who are part of our responsibilities, in a way. Be it in the past, present or future, there will always be the different paths lying ahead of us, in the woods, in the society and in life; roads not taken or the frequently visited paths. During the jungle trekking we’ve come across many paths where we had to choose in between on which road we’re to carry on with our journey, and for safety reasons, we took the road most people had traveled across. Similarly, that’s what most people do when it comes to their lives. Still, it doesn’t mean the roads less taken are not worthy enough for tryouts, sometimes.

Racing With Time

During the obstacle course, we’ve seen them rushing the teammates, hoping to overcome all challenges ahead within the shortest time frame so that they’ll be able to win the game, not knowing how well the opponents did and hence, the little dissatisfaction along the way, raising their volume against those who are slightly slower. There was this saying that we have been racing with time in our entire lives, no idea how well we’re coping with the world and how good we actually are. Never once we thought of stopping by the road side and take a break from the rush hours, for we are feeling insecure and with the desire to win overwhelming us, we urge ourselves to carry on, even though we are thoroughly worn out. We may enjoy the moment of winning and we might have fun during the process, if we see it from a different angle as we overcoming our limits and try something new. Nevertheless, there are the little possibilities that we would go out of track along the way especially when we lose our heads, turning from hero to zero as we rush ourselves without seeing where we actually heading to.

Befriend

Exchanging contact numbers has been a form of socializing skill in the current days, whenever we meet someone new who manages to capture our attention or perhaps a person who we can click on pretty well. Nevertheless, it is also known as one of the few must-dos in order to get closer to one particular person we’re interested in, somehow, and so there will be the higher potential in the days to come for a stronger bond to be formed. Well, at least that’s the first thing which would come in mind in general. Remembering the time when we bumped into a group of teenagers at the beach, a friend was self-introducing, looking straight into the girl’s eyes as if no one else matters in the world. That’s for one case. A question was being asked the other day, whether a friend would walk up to the couple who was accompanied by another friend for self introductory if he finds the girl pretty cute and fun to chat with. The answer was no. Why? Simply because the girl has already been taken. Perhaps this is part of the revolution as claimed, where certain people no longer find friendship as amusing as relationship and getting hot chicks, showing off in front of their mates on how many opposite genders they have in their friend list. Perhaps many have gone through the stages of losing close friends that they not wish to be involved in a relationship with people from the closed circles and would only befriend with those who are single and available. Do we exchange contacts simply for the sake of getting a potential soul mate? Not for all I suppose. Friendship may be developed into relationship but not all relationships would be able to take on the form of friendships. The truth is, sometimes we’ve got to remind ourselves which path we are to take on, whether we want to befriend with someone simply for the sake of getting involved in a whole new relationship or to go with the flow and see where it would lead us to in the days to come. What is the purpose of us meeting new people really? Friendship or relationship?

State of Mind

Attended Eco Camp 116 in Dusun Eco Resort, where the participants are aged from 13 to 17 and there I’ve attended a very important lesson by one of the very few respectable seniors on the first day itself. Like many have known, there is an invisible boundary around us especially when it comes to our doings, in which is predetermined by the adults who bring us up, passing such knowledge from one generation to another until the day a person who would actually go across the boundaries and leave the trade mark in many souls. It is a box which traps us in, which we already have in mind that we are not allowed to go beyond the limitations, though some may not obey such rules and regulations at times. It has always been the mind and actions taken which matter, whether we would react before thinking it through or the other way round. When it comes to the challenges in life, we may hesitate, not knowing how to solve it as the choices given are limited, that is if, we dare not think out of the box and take the risk to step beyond the boundaries. Otherwise, the choice is ours to be made, and the escape route would be in sight. Here’s an example given. A beautiful young lady would be forced to marry a hideous old man if she picks up a black pebble instead of white from the sack given as her father owes him a sum of money; however, she has seen him putting in both black pebbles instead and there is no way she can say no in taking up the challenge. Is there any glimpse of hope in escaping from the fate to marry such despicable man? Remember, it is the state of mind which would give us strength and keep us going; think out of the box and take the risk.

iPod

When we were on our way back from Redang just the other day, he put on his earphone and started listening to music. Looking at him, well, none of us have any idea what he is listening to, until he passed me one of the two speakers. Guess that’s that. We tend to seek for listeners throughout our lives and with them lending us their ears, we have a place to speak up and hence, releasing anger or any complaint we have in mind and perhaps sharing the happiness we’ve had. If we were to categorize the people on earth, there would be two in general; one is keeping everything to themselves and only hand over one of the two speakers when it is necessary or when they find the suitable listener whereas the other one is those who would plug in their iPod onto a general speaker, sharing everything they have in mind with everybody in sight, be it joy or sorrow. Frankly speaking, I find sharing the happenings around us pretty addictive in a way, does not matter whether our main purpose is to show off with our abilities or simply for the sake of telling them to someone we’re close with, nevertheless, sometimes we just couldn’t find the right person, even if we’ve tried to passed him one of the two speakers we have.